Life of the Mess

CHAPTER 1

Hello there! My name is Touka, I am 12 years old I have already arrive from United Arab Emirate to Republic of Turkey, since the reason why i moved from there to here is I have already have enough from my bullies and yet, I have already still remembered their names almost 4/5 times.
And also i got into the school called Ihsan International School, Once I already set my foot into the school I feel like i have a fresh start from the new state I feel better than ever, I hide all my past stories away from my classmates and plus I dont want to get bullied just like my old school.
I introduced myself to all my classmates including the teachers too, I got their name in the first try and remember it also, I am so happy that my parents took me to Turkey just to make me feel better and good start in new state and new school.

After i make some friends they accept the way I am and the behavior since I have already told them my issues which is having dyslexia plus anger issues and I was sweating while telling them that and they still accept the way I am, I am so happy and proud of myself to gather my courage just to tell them my issues and stuff, once I have the lesson started I was so happy about having an arabic lessonn the teachers are nice, kind, and also they do help a bit.

After reaching my home, I was excited to tell my parents everything and people including the teachers too and before that I need to change my clothes because why not feeling uncomfortable in wearing casual clothes hehe- after telling my mother everything about school and friends and also the school floors and timing and about the lunch, to be honest I didn't like the lunch cause sometimes Salty, no taste, too sweet, burned and etc...
I know sound funny but I love this life alot, and while me and my mom eat lunch my father call me on zoom so I answered the call and we both talk alot about my school and of course my dad laugh at me for having salty soup in the school lunch.

After couple of weeks I was just having nightmare about having my father saving me from the fire and telling me to take my mom and go but I didn't open my eyes that night when the nightmare is gone I took deep breath and relax and trying to let all the sweat out from my body. I did never ever told any single family member nor my classmate/friends in my school not even my councilor teacher. And again the next day got nightmare about myself when I was a child about 4 years old, in the hospital with my father and my mom? Not with us..
I asked my father where is my mom. He replied "I don't know" and I didn't open my eyes again and yet I still need an answer for it and that not the second time happen, it's second time and the first time i had was 7 or 8 years old and i still remember it.

The next day I was bit sad for not having siblings and stuff, I went to school all happy seeing my friends in good condition and health including my teacher and my parents, I love the school as long as they still pressure me and other students which make me feel unsafe and anxious. JUST Kidding! Of course it is pressuring us and make us stressed out but we have to deal with it and facing it we all as student need to work hard to get into good university and good job for our future. Who won't do all those?

I did not tell my friends about it or even i single bean out of my mouth to say one thing about my nightmare, or else they will think I am weirdo.
Once I returned home we both having fight and turns out that my mom go surgery because of the baby delivery came way too early, so to connect my dream that, when I was in the hospital with my father my mom wasn't around me nor my dad, to explain where she is, she was in the freaking surgery to take the baby out since that baby dead, after I heard that from my mom that she need to make surgery I feel angry but not only that sad at the same time, thinking that I am the only child in my family and also i though I am the only child in the world.

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Hello there my friends! Thanks alot for reading and of course if u are I rested to know in detail please select the text and comment to let me know and if you want to know more about my life, so all those what I wrote is not fake all of them are complete true about me and the story started from when I just arrived to Republic of Turkey, and if you want to know the school more I will add the link.

There you go 👇👇👇👇👇👇👇👇

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