You know the feeling when you have something inside, feelings, and you feel everything is exposing it? Every word! And you talk cautiously and still think about what you say hundreds of times!!
It's like the thing you're hiding doesn't want to be hidden anymore, and believe me I agree with it! But I have got to think about the consequences..
Stage 1 : He wouldn't notice.
I was acting normal as I used to do, but I still find myself forcing it, because no it's not normal for me anymore, but ok I don't think he would notice that.
Stage 2 : I've got to be more careful!
What if this was obvious? What if he knows already? What if, what if, what if.. This was obviously about the fright of being exposed, and I was also worried about ruining our friendship, I wouldn't want to risk that for the world!
Stage 3 : What's the worst that could happen?
At this point I was obsessing over this thought, and the results : Height in the ratio of headaches and the sleep ratio was decreasing for sure.
Something inside just wanted to get out, and I really wanted to let it , I have thought to myself a million times that it's better to regret letting everything out than spending the rest of your life imagining what could happen? What if it went just as good? And more what ifs..
After a long fight, unbearable feelings that were hard to keep and hard to release, and even harder to feel, he has known somehow, But I didn't get to tell everything inside, I guess it will remain inside, just for me..
And that's the main reason why I..
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Short StoryHow can anyone tidy up their feelings in order to write them down! Especially the kind of feelings that leaves your mind numb. Instead of trying so hard, it would be hundreds of times better to accept the fact that nothing is perfect. Fact, excuse...
