single dad: v.h

chapter twenty-six *

(tw: vomiting)

Every moment of this he was regretting. He regretted it so much it pained him to think about it but he couldn't stop.

He couldn't put his phone down or take his hand off of his dick. He couldn't peel his eyes away from the screen and he couldn't get the thought of loving the sound of Emily's moans through the speaker of his phone out of his head.

He had watched the video at least three times before this, watching the way his dick disappeared inside of her. He loved the way she used to grip around his dick or how she arched her back when he would make her cum. How she looked on her knees when she sucked him off.

Before he knew it he released all over his hand and legs, breathing heavy and moaning her name as he did it. He closed the app out and locked his phone after chasing out his high.

He wiped his legs off with a towel and threw it in the floor. He pulled his pants and boxers up and sat against his headboard. He just sat there and for the first time in awhile he felt enraged. Enraged at himself for letting himself cum while he thought about the girl that did him so wrong while he had a beautiful girlfriend who loved him and his children that didn't even belong to her. Something Emily couldn't do and they were her own children. This was the same girl that he couldn't get over and had no idea why.

Before he knew it he had ran to the bathroom, hit his knees, and vomited so violently he could feel his rib cage shake. His head spun as he slammed back into the wall of the bathroom. His eyes and cheeks stung as he sobbed.

And he let himself come completely undone in the bathroom floor. Sobbing, screaming, and punching until he finally stopped and all feeling was gone. He rose from the floor, flushing the toilet and looking at his red and terrifying looking face in the mirror.

He brushed his teeth and washed his face. He flipped the bathroom light off and walked back into his bedroom where he collapsed on the bed and just lay there, staring at his ceiling and trying to wrap his mind around how he could be so stupid.

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An Hour Later

"Daddy we're home!" Bear yelled.

Vinnie walked down the stairs seconds later. His eyes were bloodshot and his face was tear stained. Bear took one look and frowned.

"Are you okay?" Bear asked softly.

"Nope." Vinnie answered and sat on the floor with his legs opened so Bear could stand close to him.

"Don't be sad daddy." Bear said, walking into her dad's embrace and hugging him tightly.

Aaliyah walked in the house, finding her boyfriend in the floor. He looked completely lost and it worried her even more than she already had been.

"Daddy's trying honey. I'm trying." Vinnie answered.

"Is this about my mom?" Bear asked.

"Yes." Vinnie's voice got quieter.

"Please don't think about her." Bear said, wiping tears from her daddy's cheeks.

"I'll try my hardest for you okay?" Vinnie nodded.

"You still have me daddy. You have Kaiser and Aaliyah." Bear said, watching as his face contorted into sadness.

"I promise you that I'll stay daddy. No matter how many mistakes you make and no matter how many times you mess up and have dumb ideas, I promise you I'll always stay daddy." Bear said.

Vinnie gulped, pulling her into a hug so tight that Bear knew he loved her with all of his heart. She kissed his cheek repeatedly, hoping it would cheer him up.

"We made you a bear. Wanna see it?" Bear asked when she pulled away.

"Yes baby. Let me see it." Vinnie smiled.

Bear took the stuffed animal from Aaliyah's hands and turned around to show it to Vinnie who smiled wide at the sight of his daughter so happy to give him the bear.

"I got you a bear so you would always have me with you." Bear said, holding the bear out to him.

He held it in his hands and looked down at it, the biggest smile on his face.

"Press the button." Aaliyah said, watching her boyfriend as his face lit up at the sound of their voices saying "I love you" and Kaiser's voice in the background babbling.

The recording stopped but his tears didn't. He had gotten so lucky having them in his life even though he didn't deserve a single one of them.