Skittles ≫ a.i ☼

Part 9

*sorry for the wait*

"I love you, you love me we're a great big happy family! With a GREAT big hug and KISS from me to you! Won't you say you LOVE ME tooooooo!" Ashton sings aloud to me. Certain words he sings louder trying to cue at something. Probably trying to get into my pants.

"Shut up little kid." I groan and hide my face in my hands. He's been singing the creepy Barney song over and over for the past 20 minutes.

"Who are you calling a little kid?" His lips form to create a pout. Before he was twirling around the room, but now he drops to the floor.

"You."

"I'm a big kid! I'm 20!" He rolls around the floor and then looks at the ceiling. He closes his eyes and pretends to snore.

"Sure you are." Now I know something more about Ashton. He's 20 while I'm just about to be 19.

"Why do you hate me?" He pouts.

"I don't hate you, you're just highly annoying and just barely tolerable." I glare him. No wonder he thinks I hate him. I glare at him and never seem happy to see him at all.

"If you didn't hate me then you would sleep with me."

I forced out a laugh that sounded more like I was chocking. "Yeah sure because that's how it works."

"Let me fuck your brains outtttt." He gets up and walks over to me. He kneels in front of my bed and pleads. "Please!"

"No." I pick my feet off of the floor and sit with my legs crossed.

"But why! Are you a virgin?" His eyebrows perk up in question. "I promise I won't hurt you."

"NO! I said no!" I scream at him in frustration.

"So you are a virgin?" He doesn't seem to take the hint that no matter what I won't sleep with him.

"I'm not a virgin so just shut up and go back home." My face is bright red with anger. I can't control myself any more if he keeps pushing me so much. "Just please leave me alone." A tear streaks down my face.

He opens his mouth to say something but then he stops. Within the span of a second he seemed to sober up.

His hands go to my waist and he pulls down on the floor with him. He presses me against his strong chest as I cry.

The tears keep coming down, there is no stopping them once they start. My eyes are like a broken faucet that only stops when the water runs out. I've never been able to just shut off my tears whenever.

One of his hands move from my to my hair. His long finger run through my also long hair. He seems to sway and hum to comfort me. It has a calming effect on me. Surprisingly at the moment I don't feel like ripping out his insides and rearranging them. Instead I feel safe in his strong, tattooed arms.

Once my sobs seem to come to an end he stops swaying and humming. It's a shame since his voice is so angelic like.

"Babe tell me what that break down was all about?" His voices scared me because we had been in silence for so long.

I contemplate long and hard about telling him really what it was all about. If he's high enough he won't remember what I told him. I've never told anyone and it would be extremely nice to get it off my chest. So I open my mouth to tell him the secret I've held in. The secret that has slowly been tearing apart my insides. The secret that has made me hate myself so much to point were I want to die.

"Ashton, I hope you don't remember this. I just need to say it out loud." I pause and think about how I'm going to start. I feel the broken faucet my eyes are start to act. I shut my eyes hoping to stop the faucet. I seems to work for the first time. Good.

"In the past I've had horrible things done to me. Horrible things that make me want to die. You probably won't understand. You're probably just like them." I spit out the word them as if it was venom. "It's not just something that only I am a victim of. Other girls and even guys have to suffer through this. I was able to escape it but physically but not mentally."

I'm about to continue when the door opens up and my roommate walks through. I quickly stand up and push off Ashton. I almost told him. I almost hold him. I almost told him.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to interrupt anything." My roommate, Mina Chang speaks out. She's a shy girl who's extremely small(4'10).

"No it's okay. You didn't interrupt anything at all. Ashton was just about to leave." I wipe my eyes that are still wet from all the tears I cried.

I grab Ashton's huge hand and drag him to a standing position. "Did you drive over?" I ask him as I pull him through the door and out into the hallway.

"I took the bus." His face was emotionless but his eyes showed how confused and scared he was. Why was he scared?

"Okay I'll drive you to your house or somewhere." I pull my keys out of my pocket and walk out to the parking lot.

Ashton doesn't say a word on our drive except for giving directions. Apparently he lives on the other side of campus in the boys dorms. I drop him off and drive back. I immediately jump into my bed and under the covers. The broken faucet starts again.

Author's Note;
Oh shit drama. Omg finally the story has picked up. Get ready for more haha.