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(hot)showers

There are multiple reasons for people to take showers: to start the day nice and fresh, to relax and actually I wouldn't know what else.

I take showers because I have to. If i wouldn't shower atleast once in 2 days my parents would think I'm a gross kid. But onestly I am just too lazy. I would rather lay in my bed all evening instead of spending my preaseous time on showering.

Anyways. When I do decide to step under the shower I usually put some music on. Not to relax, but to try and distract myself from the things in my head. I think about many things in the shower. But when I am not listening to music the thought get sadder. Like depressing ass thoughts.

Or I could be thinking about things to write in this book. Sometimes very good drawing ideas would pop up in my head. It also happens that im very busy fantisising about getting railled by my crush. It deffinatly is not all sad shit..

I feel alright when showering. But after a couple of minutes standing under the running water and listening to music. I run out of things to do.

I have been trying for 5 minutes to get the shampoo out of my eyes. I've brushed my teeth. There's not much else to do.

So I would decide to turn the temperature up. Not a lot. Just a little, so that when close my eyes I can feel the water getting warmer. But the feeling of the water getting warmer is kind of addicting.

It's maybe a little like feeling loved. It's like being held inside of a nice and comfortable hug.

But then I get used to the warmth of the watter and it doesn't give me that feeling.

So I would turn the water temperature up a couple of times, until the water starts to burn a little. After that, my feet would turn red and the entire bathroom filled with hot steam.

My head starts to feel a little light and I have trouble breathing. When the feeling begins to feel a little unpleasant so I would often turn the shower off again.

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A/N: Goodnight.
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