So yeah. Eating is something I do.
It sometimes can feel kind of awfull to eat. I don't care how good the food is or how hungry I am. Eating is something I have mixed feelings about.
You know, I obviously need food. To function and stuff. A person can simply not live without eating some form of (healthy) food every day.
But I kind of hate it. Why can I not just function without food? Without all the drama of having to eat in front of other people. Or alone.
Eating makes me feel really lonely sometimes. Even when I am surrounded by friends and nobody even notices that i'm eating. It still sucks.
Because after eating a meal it just feels a little... Gross? Weird? Sometimes even painfull.
I figured out that my body turns strong emotions into pain. Well that's what my doctor told me. So whenever I've been laughing for a long time it starts to hurt. Or when im thinking to much. I just get the worst pain everywhere in my body.
When I cry it hurts the most. That's why I don't like crying.
But after I ate I just feel a little more terrible then before.
It feels like I gained 50 kilos and like I am 10 times fatter. I still eat though. I never eat less or eat nothing.
I'm still able to make myself eat every single meal. Or whenever I'm hungry.
Just the feeling I get after eating. Or the thought of eating. It can make me feel sick. And I kind of hate it.
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But yeah that's just what I think. Eating is not that big of a deal it's just something I learned to hate.
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