Vampire Knight, The Tortured Knight(Fanfic)

Ch.9 Sneaking Madness

It has been a couple days since I woke up and I spoke to Kaien. I was outside in the dead of night in the gardens, swinging my sword from, taking a middle level stance, or Seigan no kamae. I would close my eyes, repeatingly swinging, keeping my breath slow and steady, remembering the conversation I had with Kaien.

"Grey, this complicates things enormously... its clear that your no regular vampire, least, normal level vampire... in all honestly I couldn't tell if you were a pureblood or a regular vampire. One things for certain, I certainly sensed the presence of a very old and very powerful vampire... the one you told me a while ago, well it very well may be a possibility now" his voice would echo in my head.

"If only I could act surprised for you Kaien but... I been hearing her damn voice in my head for the last little while Kaien, and ever sense I first fed... things have been getting worse... however I also feel stronger each time I use her blood... my blood" I'd reply to him.

He was silent for a bit before sighing, adjusting his glasses. "I don't know what to do with you to be frank, or what the future holds now that the Vampires Society will know of what happened. The closest decision I can think of is starting by starting you with the night class from here on... which I know you may detest the idea, but they also very well may help you..." he would tell me.

I'd grit my teeth slightly before sighing, crossing my arms, giving it some thought. "Honestly Kaien... I could care less. I only care for Yuki, my friends and for hunting down those bastards..." I would tell him.

He would laugh in response, smiling slightly. "Don't change Grey, least don't change your personality... if... say the worst comes, and you do change, just remember what you're fighting for. I'll try to protect you as much as I can from the Hunters and Vampires society. As for your maker, Kuryiama. I'll get a few trusted hunters to look for traces on where she may be. Last we need is for you to fully rampage and lose control, specially seeing what I seen..." he would finish.

I would nod in response and he'd turn to walk out of the room, but stopped just before leaving "ahh, and Grey..." he would turn back around to face me. "Think of it this way. Live like a human would. Don't toss away your emotions... that'll help you when you become conflicted" he'll say before exiting the room.

I'd open my eyes, sheathing the Frayed blade, crossing my arms. "This is a surprise, even for me. You're actually contemplating accepting this, however, still disregarding your new nature" Lævatienn would say in my head.

"Does it matter now..? I think its painfully obvious, no matter how much I try and deny it... however. Doesn't mean I abandoned that of which I fight for, doesn't mean I forget my origin. In a sense. Im still human at the end of the day, and until my goals are completed, thats all that matters" I would say back, looking up to the moonlit sky.

"My my. New sense of determination. Still, funny how well and compatible you are with my blood. Im surprised however, that you are oblivious to the fact. Even if I was any other pureblood, you are more intuned with vamperism then an average ex-human, I'm sure you'd have their abilities as well, maybe your own as well, though the strength may depend on the pureblood... as for your tails. Seems your familiar was formed out of rage and desperation... ex humans, let alone common vampire are incapable of such feats" she would finish.

I'd scoff slightly, staring up at the moon. Admittedly, I feel like im waisting time, and Kaname hasn't even gotten back to me on the location on those bastards yet. Even when I did hunt, no ex-human knew what I spoke of. I'm on a fuse and its getting worse, I'm progressing further and further down, but at the cost I'm getting stronger and stronger, more... "intuned" with vamperism.

"Again, Lævatienn, my goals now is what matter to me, gift or curse or whatever it is to be called. I'll use it to tear them apart, but doesnt mean I'll give up who I am... I'll be free from these shackles of madness, and break the chains of my past" I would say, turning away from the moon and walking off and out of the gardens.