The Value of Tears (En- JayWon) ✔

XXXII

Jay

Sunoo swam back to the surface and Riki immediately handed him a blanket to cover up as he transforms back to his legs.

"Where's Jungwon? Is he alright?"

"Jungwon swam away, he said he needs to be alone. . but he is alright . ."

"He is fine . . he healed himself . . . but, he is crying as he swam away. Tell me you didnt do something stupid Jay"

"I . . . I don't know . . I'm not sure . ."

Sunoo just sighed as he went to Riki and let himself be carried to the car. Sunoo looks wasted tho and it can mean that Jungwon really is very injured when they healed him.

I feel stupid now. If Jungwon will be mad at me, might as well throw myself in the ocean.

"We'll wait for you in the car . ."

Heeseung thankfully knew what is going on and so he left me there alone as I sat beside the sea hoping for a familiar blue and red mermaid tail to show themselves.

"Please Carrots tell me . . . "

Wiping my tears, I buried my head in between my knees as I couldn't help but sob.

Just what on Earth am I made of that everyone I love goes on to leave me one by one. What have I been doing in my life anyway?

I am just living in accordance to what I believe and see is right but I just ended up being the villain as always.

I was brought in the orphanage and immediately I was rejected by Mia until Hena came. Then as I grow up, no one wants to play with me nor come near me until Sunghoon came up. I got pushed around, kicked by random people, being looked down by passerby's, poured at by water cold or hot by people I don't even know. What the heck did I do for them to do that to me?

People didn't see that side so when I began to make them pay for what they did to me, I am in the end the bad guy.

What the heck did I become the bad guy when I am just giving them what they deserved for doing it to me? If they had been good and did not do those things, then I will not even spare them a glance now.

And now, I build that wall for myself to not be hurt again so I became like this, a predator. And like how other people see me, Jungwon will see me the same as well.

I just hope he will come back one more time because I want to apologize to him.

I don't care if he will hate me for being like a predator a while ago but I just want him to know that everything I did and everything I said to him about how I love him are true. I do love him and I didn't just use him.

I am afraid Sooho might even tell him I only used him. I want him to be back so I can tell him that it is not true.

I love him.

I just hope he believes me. He doesn't have to believe anything but he must know I love him, so much.

......

It is already evening and I am now walking around the shore as I wait for him. As I walk, I came across a huge rock and I know it is not just a rock.

It seems like every shore or seaside has this huge rock, making me believe that mermaids did exist and they made these rocks to stay in. But because humans have gone, I don't know wild, mermaids never dared to surface.

I swam behind the rock and as I enter, a familiar blue and red shiny mermaid tail filled my eyes.

"Carrots?"