Not Another Damn Sob Story- Luke Hemmings

~five~

L U K E S P O V

5 days have passed since Clarity arrived. We have rarely talked besides, maybe a sorry when we bump into each other in the hallways.

Our nurses don't seem too pleased with us; you're supposed to be kind and welcoming to your new room mate. That wasn't working for us..

I tried talking to her but she just pushed past me to exit or completely. ignored me.

As I passed her room as I was walking to my room, I heard soft sobs. I glanced over to find her curled up in a tight ball in the middle of her bed.

I carefully walked up to her bed and sat on the opposite side that she was facing.

"Are you okay Clarity?" I ask softly trying not to scare her. In response the sobs get louder. I gently pull her up from her position and into my chest. I slowly rubbed her back.

"Do you want to talk about it? Maybe I could help."

She slowly sat up and wiped her tears away while shrugging.

"I really miss my brother and home. I've only been here 5 days, I don't know how I'm going to last any longer. I just want it all to end. This place is suppose to help me and it's just making it worse." She cringed.

"It'll all get better, maybe not right away but you'll get used to it here. I'll be here for you. Even if you aren't fond of me, they put us with roommates so we can talk everything out." I assured her.

"I'm sorry for being so rude to you, I tend to shut people out."

I nod my head as a friendly gesture. Over our heads the bell rang twice. Which means it's time for lunch yay..

"Can I walk you to lunch?" I ask.

She nods her head slightly and we make our way to the dining hall. I glance at the menu; BLT sandwiches. Gross, do you know how many carbs is in that?! I cringe and walk to my designated table.

My nurse walks up to the table with a tray with half a peanut butter sandwich, celery sticks and a glass of milk.

"Okay Luke I want you to try and eat all of this. You can do it!" She cheered, I gave her a small smile which returned back to a cringe as I looked back down to the large tray.

I picked up a small piece of celery and started nibbling at it. It looks about 4 inches, which is 1 calorie. So far I'm up to calories 174. If I eat this peanut butter sandwich I'll be up to 362 calories.

Yikes that's pushing it so far past my normal limit by lunch. I just want to try some food again, maybe it'll be better than before.

I finish my piece of celery and 1/2 of my half-sandwich, 268 calories is fine for now.

God as I chew I can feel my stomach start to grind and reject the large intake of food.

I look over at Clarity's small figure next to me. She was playing with her bacon.

As my stomach begin to turn in disgust I feel my eyes begin to haze over. I'm about to burst.

"Luke, are you feeling ok?"

I quickly bolt to the nearest trash can, my stomach collapsing in agony. As I watch my lunch spew out of me I begin the cry.

Once I was done releasing what food was in me. I turn around and slide down the trash can. I begin to feel tears stream down my face. I was doing so well.

I hadn't noticed my nutritionist, nurse and Clarity came over.

"Oh Luke dear, you were doing so well!" My nurse frowned as the nutritionist agreed.

Clarity held her hand out for me to stand up, I accepted the generous offer and stood up. Soon I was engulfed in a hug by Clarity.

"This is just a rough patch Luke, you'll get there and I hope I can be here to help you." She softly whispered in my ear.

I cautiously nodded, but deep down inside I knew I wasn't going to get better.

If a small intake of food was rejected how was I supposed to ever get the right nutrition. I am such a fuck up, I can never do anything right. My parents think so, all the doctors think so, Clarity will begin to realize it too.

"Did you finish your lunch, Clarity?" I kindly ask, I didn't want her to not eat because of my little outburst.

"Yes I did Luke. Let's just go back to the room." Clarity reassured me.

---back in the room---
"Clarity, can we please watch Frozen?" I plead.

"You like Frozen? Are you an average teenager or my next husband?" She joked.

I walked to the cabinet full of movies by the tv we share. We were only allowed happy movies. No one could die in any of them.

To be honest that fucking sucked because action movies and I are soulmates.

I put the DVD into the player and grabbed a blanket to lay over us.

Clarity and I both sat down on the couch with the fuzzy blanket over us.

Once the movie began, I shortly after fell asleep.

I woke up with my arms around Clarity's waist; she was also fast asleep. I went back to watching the movie.

Anna and Olaf were talking by the fire. Clarity began to shift around besides me. As I was starring down at her a certain line played through out the room.

"Some people are worth melting for.."