Quirkless Advantage

Chapter forty-four: I hate saying this but -

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"Admit it, it was amazing," I say, still sitting against the headboard.

"I wouldn't say amazing ... I hate saying this but it was actually good. Depressing but good," Dabi says, still sitting in front of me.

"Yup.. it is. It was actually one of mine and my sister's favorite movies to watch together. We would always end up a crying mess even though we've watched it together multiple times before," I say, smiling sadly.

"What is your sister's name?" Dabi asks.

"How about we play a little game? I tell you about my past and you tell me about your past," I say, sitting up off the headboard.

Dabi thinks for a couple of seconds, "Fine."

"My sister's name is Ayuna," I say.

"Ayuna? That's very close to your name," Dabi says, raising his eyebrow.

"Yup... My parents were very lazy naming us," I say, shrugging my shoulders.

"Now it's my turn," I say leaning in, "What was one of your favorite things you did with your siblings?"

Dabi sighs, "One of the few things that we got to do rarely was that me and all of my siblings would sit on the most ridiculous bright green couch, that was actually the comfiest couch I've even sat on, and watch stupid cartoons. It wouldn't matter what was on, we all enjoyed it because it was the only time we all could be together and happy."

"Well, that's depressing," I say without thinking about it.

I look at Dabi's surprised face.

"Sorry...well, not really... It really is depressing but it is also sweet... in a way. You know, if you take out the part that you all rarely got to bond and be happy," I say.

Dabi laughs and shakes his head at me, "You're not wrong. Now it's my turn."

"Ok," I say.

"What happens in your nightmares?' Dabi asks.

I really don't want to talk about that.

I guess I really should at least talk to someone about it.

Definitely not Aizawa. He will probably think I'm crazy.

Dabi is crazy so if I tell him...he might not think I'm crazy...

Nope, he will think I'm crazy.

Oh, well.

At least this way I can at least talk about it with someone and get it off my chest.

"In my nightmare, I'm screaming and crying... I say 'no' a lot. I don't know where I am, only that it's dark and everything is red," I say, stopping to take a deep breath to calm myself down.

I'm shaking.

I don't know why I'm doing this.

I try to stop but can't.

I only continue.

"I'm cradling something in my arms but I can't see what it is. I only see red. I hear someone talking to me but I can't tell who it is," I say and stop again.

"The person says,'don't worry, I'll fix this,' and look up and see a silhouette that is red," I say, trying to calm myself down by slowing down my breathing.

"I have another nightmare about my sister. It's never the same except for her saying mostly the same things and her sinking into water. She's saying the same thing as the other person says, 'don't worry, I'll fix this.' The water always fades to black, then red, and then white as she sinks into it. The place is always different though," I say, looking at Dabi's face.

It's just blank.

No emotion.

Maybe a little and it's just confusion.

"It's crazy and it doesn't make sense but it feels so real... It feels like there's more to it but I just can't see it... It feels like something is holding me back from knowing it all," I say, looking down at my hands that are still shaking, just like the rest of my body.

"Maybe it's not just a nightmare," Dabi says, leaning on one of his elbows.

"Maybe they're just memories that you don't allow yourself to see. It sounds like how I feel with the memories I have about my past. Did something happen to your sister?" Dabi asks and I look back up to him.

"No... nothing happened to her," I pause for a moment.

At least I don't think anything happened to her.

I mean... we had a fight before we came here but that was it. We made up and went to bed.

That's all I remember.

What is happening to her now? Maybe somehow I know about that... Is she not ok?

Stop.

She's fine.

Nothing happened to her.

She's ok.

"Anyways, it's my turn," I say, snapping out of my thoughts.

"It's not really a question but... you called me by my name again," I say.

"Yeah... Even though I do like my little nicknames, I thought that if we decided to actually trust each other and continue whatever this thing is between us, then I should call you by your actual name," Dabi says.

"So... does that mean I can call you Touya?" I say, smirking, leaning my body closer to him.

Dabi gets off of his elbow and sits up straight.

He looks bothered.

He doesn't say anything and I sit back up to keep my distance.

"I...I'm sorry... I took it a little far... Just forget it. I won't call you that if it bothers you," I say, wrapping my arms around myself.

"It's... fine... I guess," Dabi finally says.

"Wait... really?" I say, surprised.

Dabi only nods.

"I mean I could always just call you Crispy," I say, trying not to laugh but fail.

Dabi glares, "No, do not call me that."

I continue laughing.

Dabi moves so he's on his knees and leans in, "Call me by my actual name."

I lean closer to him, my lips hovering over his, "Kiss me first, then maybe I'll say it."

Dabi smirks and kisses me.

I move so my feet are uncrossed, they are bent at the knees as I lean back on the headboard. Dabi gets between them, kissing me as he moves his hand beside my head on the headboard. He deepens the kiss as he gets closer when I grab onto his shirt.

Dabi takes his other hand and grabs my waist, gently pulling me down so my head is on the pillow. I let go of his shirt and grabbed his jacket, trying to pull it off.

Dabi suddenly stops kissing, grabbing my hand to stop me from taking off his jacket.

"I need to go," Dabi says and I whine, trying to get my hand out of his, wanting to continue.

He leans down to give me one more kiss, "We can continue it later." He gets off me and walks towards the window, stopping at it again to look back at me.

"Also, cute pajamas," Dabi says smirking, opening the window and finally climbing out.

Before he closes the window, I stand up and run over to it.

I stick my head out, "Goodnight Touya."

Dabi smiles and leans over so he can kiss me. "Goodnight Tsuna," He says, and I move so he can close the window.

Smile number eleven.