Always and Forever

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Tw: for internalized homophobia

Scorpius got up and put on his robes and went down to breakfast and sat down. As he was grabbing his food Albus sat across from him. Albus looks very depressed and Scorpius wishes that Albus would tell him what's wrong. Well it would be hypocrisy for him to be upset with Albus for not telling him everything because he had a secret. He had a huge crush on Albus. Scorpius is unsure what that means in terms of his identity. The problem is that he thinks he's gay but he has no one to talk to about it. He was completely isolated. "At Least Albus has someone to talk to about this." Scorpius thought to himself" My family would never accept me, especially my grandparents. Scorpius went to class and all he could think about what his grandparents told him all throughout his childhood about gay people, the words circles in his head "being gay is an abomination","gay people deserve to die" "if you end being gay we kick you out onto the streets". That last part really got to him every time this happened. That last line always made his gray eyes water a little. He quickly so no one would notice that he was crying. 
       
       Before the blonde boy knew it was bedtime he was so lost in his head wondering if his family would really kick him out if was gay he feel asleep very on uneasy. He dreamt something horrible. "What! You're gay you are an abomination I wish you weren't my son! His father was fuming,his pale face beet red. His Grandmother was clutching her chest with her eyes wide as if her grandson had confessed to dating a muggle. His grandfather has shattered his wine glass while looking bright red and fuming with anger. His mother was holding his father's wand arm from pulling out his wand. He broke out of the woman's grasp and pulled out his wand and shot Scorpius with a curse that Scorpius was not familiar with and as the curse hit his chest he heard his father scream "get out of my house you abomination." Scorpius woke with a start, he was sweating and his breathing was heavy. He laid down on his side and started crying quietly. Then he heard a whisper "what's wrong?" Asked Albus. Scorpius rolled over " I had a nightmare." Albus nodded with his green eyes looking sympathetically "what was about?" Scorpius froze; he couldn't tell Albus what his dream was about. He broke down crying and curled up in a ball and started sobbing. He felt someone crawl into bed, it was Albus. Albus hugged the crying boy and said " it's okay you don't have to tell me if you don't want to I understand. I'm here if you want to talk." Scorpius felt himself calm down while in Albus' touch before both boys knew it they fell asleep in each other's arms. 

A/n: I tried writing this in Scorpius' point of view let me know if you guys like me to do more of this