DEAR TAEHYUNG| 𐤀

January.

Dear Taehyung,

Its a new year, and I've made it my resolution to tell you how I feel, in a few months we will be graduating and I don't think that I can find a better time than to tell you then right now before you go off to whatever college that would be lucky enough to have a star just like you. I hope that this year would bring you nothing but the best because that's what you deserve the best, which is why I may not tell you my identity because I don't feel as if I'm the best, but you have to try right?

So I'm going to tell about what you're getting if my idea works, I'm in AP Math with you so I'm kinda smart even though I may not act like it, I'm 6'0 I need you to know my height  because I know you like when your partner is taller than you because it makes you feel small, in a good way of course. I have tattoos which are never seen due to school rules, but I have an entire sleeve which can only be seen by certain people, I'm hoping one day you may be one of those people. I would give you more details but then that will give me away.

But I know that you love a good mystery, so I'm not going to give you too much and leaving you yearning for more, more of me. To leave you craving for me just as much as I crave for you after all these years, wait.... that sounds a bit creepy promise I'm not a creep, well maybe I am. Sometimes I do feel like that, just watching you from a far as you're with your popular 'friends' wearing that beautiful boxy smile, but only someone like me would know that the smile is fake.

Only me knows that you dislike how privileged they behave, when you are here on a scholarship because you work so hard to get here, yet you have to pretend you didn't and pretend to be as dumb as them because they know that even with the failing grades, their still going to be comfortable with their mommy and daddy's money, but you don't have that option, and I don't like how you feel that you have to stoop to their level, when you were beyond them, hell you're beyond this world.

Anyway I'm not going to babble anymore about my admiration and love for you, yes I love you, I'm not going to be ashamed of it and say that I don't because I do, at an unhealthy amount really, but its not in a toxic way of course but nevermind that....I hope these letters find you and not in the hand of anyone else like your boyfriend, the boyfriend that doesn't deserve you but that's just my opinion, a right opinion it is, but I'm not going to speak on things that make me angry any further I just wanted to wish a Happy New Year since I wasn't able to do it at the party in person like I planned.

So here it is, Happy New Year gumdrop!,

                                                                                        Sincerely the one that's soon going to be yours.

P.S gumdrop is your new nickname from me, feel free to give me one gumdrop ; ).