DEAR TAEHYUNG| 𐤀

March.

Dear Taehyung, 

Its March now, nothing special really happens in this month for you or me, well its your future mother in law birthday is in this month so there's that, she talks about you a lot, maybe because I talk about you a lot, I hope you don't thinks that's weird but when I'm passionate about something I won't shut up about it, at least that's what my family says, I'm pretty sure that everybody who lives in my house knows about my crush?, I wouldn't call it that... what I feel is much deeper than just a mere crush, but all I'm saying is everybody knows about you.

They wouldn't stop pressuring me about going up to you, 'grow some balls son' that's what my father says, like it didn't take him fifteen years to ask my mother on a first date, I always throw that in his face, and he just tells me that is the reason why he's telling me to go for it, he knows how hard it can be to watch the one you love in the arms of another, its a painful feeling that I couldn't even begin to put into words, but the pain is worth it when I see you smile or when you constantly check your locker to see if anything is in it... maybe from me?, I don't know, I don't want to get to cocky.

But there's nothing wrong with dreaming a bit, no?. I like feeling that you are anticipating my letters, I like to dream that you are reading them over and over, and thinking of me wherever you are... asking yourself 'Who is he?' or 'why does he make me feel this way?'. If I make you feel something at all that is, trust me I'm always asking myself the second question when it comes to you, why do you make me feel this way gumdrop?, its unexplainable, your presence alone does something to me and why is that?, I can't put a finger on why I am so enthralled by you, but I am.

Oh, I just remembered that you said you loved the basket, and that it made your entire week, I'm glad... not to be that person but I did put a lot of time and effort into it and I'm glad that you liked and appreciated it, the way your face lit up when you opened it made my entire week, God you're so beautiful, I could've swore that I saw your eyes sparkle or maybe I was being delusional as I usual am or that's what my brother tells me.... speaking of my brother, you know him very well actually, but not much people know we are siblings.... and we like to keep it that way.

I've  also seen you getting closer to Jimin like I said you would, but don't get too close gumdrop I tend to get jealous a lot... so you can  imagine how much it happens seeing you with you the 'boyfriend', I've also notice yall have been getting distant, I'm not going to sit here and say that I'm sad about it, but I'm so fucking happy and I know for a fact that you may be too... just a tiny bit, but you don't have to admit because that's the fun thing about knowing someone so well, so much things can go unsaid and you would still know what they're feeling, and I hope that one day you can know me inside and out just how I know you.

Since I don't have nothing to say since this month has no big holiday I'm going to give you a fun fact. I'm closer to you than you think gumdrop <3,

                                                                                                        Sincerely your future boyfriend *hopefully* ;).