DEAR TAEHYUNG| 𐤀

April.

Dear Taehyung,

Its my favorite time of year contrary to what most may think, I love all of the brightness and colorfulness that comes with spring even though the way I dress will contradict everything I'm saying, but don't judge by its cover right?, but that saying only applies sometimes, don't you think?, sometimes you make the right impression about people just by looking at them, just as I did you, I was right by judging how  kind and special you are by just looking at you, the only judgement of character I may have gotten right in my life, trust me I've only judged people wrong in the past and that ended up getting me hurt, but my notes are not going to be sad.

Anyway we're about to go on Spring Break, and there is going to be a party like always. I know you're going to be there even though you don't like big crowds, something we have in common, but for the first time in my life I would actually attend one of these dumb overrated high school parties when  I would much rather be home spending time in my room listening to music, which I find really therapeutic  which is why I would like to pursue it one day.... I don't want to be an idol or anything I just want people to find peace within my music like I do with so many artists. I like having positive impacts on people I meet, and I think you would like my music when you get the opportunity to hear it, I say when cause if you haven't noticed by now I'm an optimist.... most of the time.

Sometimes I get a bit pessimistic especially when it comes to you gumdrop, and I don't want you to take offence to that even though it may seem that its offensive. I just have  a lot of self doubt at times, I always think how would you react if I were to actual see the person I am outside of these letters, would you like what you see?... sometimes I doubt that. I don't want to be that person, but I do get insecure my appearance even though I've been told numerous times that I'm so 'good looking' its hard to believe that you know?, you probably don't you're the epitome of perfection, and this is the one time you can't disagree with me.

From the last letter you asked how close we are on a scale of 1 to 10, do you want me to answer that in a delusional way or a genuine way because if we talk about how I  feel in my head while being delusional I would say that we are as close as married couple who fell in love in high school and has five kids, two dogs, and a hamster. But... if I'm talking about how well we know each other out of the dreamland I created I would give it a solid 4, maybe a 3.... I don't really know how you would considerate.. let's just say that we've had conversations before... not many, but not few... I feel like I'm taking in parables now so I'll stop.

Also tell your sister that I said happy ninth birthday from her future bestfriend by the way you talk about her I could tell we have a lot a common don't thinks it weird,  I do follow you on social media so I see your posts about her, I'm sure everyone does.... you have like thousands of followers, my little gumdrop is a celebrity... eww that's cringe, but like I said before we're going on spring break and I'm coming t the party and I'm actually going to give you a surprise so this can be the only event you will anticipate and want to go to, I don't want you to stay up thinking about, but you'll know my surprise when you see it.

Uhhh even though I know you love these letters so much... Jimin told me. Its time for this one to come to an end gumdrop, also I'm going to leave you with another fun fact that also may be embarrassing.... I'm a virgin and I want someone I love wholeheartedly to be my first and I'm trying to be bold but I'm giving you a hint about something gumdrop ;).

                                                                                                                       Sincerely your kid's future dad<3.