once again new book😀

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TW: PETS (I KNOW SLEEP HAS THIS PLEASE DON'T READ IF IT TRIGGERS U BECAUSE THIS IS SAD)

So we get home and my dad is standing on my granny's porch pointing at the ground

So me and my mom get out of the car.

And my white cat had to kittens..

She wasn't taking care of them because she's sick.

So I started panicking and my mom was trying to help me.. and..

My dad walks by me and says "well she isn't taking care of them I'm not gonna handle some cats"

So he goes in the house leaving the kittens on the ground.

I started having a meltdown because I don't like seeing animals in pain or dying.

I run in the house BEGGING my dad to help.

He wouldn't my mom told me to get a box so I grabbed a box and we put them in a box then we called my cousin.

She told us to bring them to her so we brought them to her so she has them now she's gonna give them to the lady who Takes care of kittens..

So that's good..BUT

I'm hurt because my dad wasn't helping he kept saying
"I'm not fooling around with cats"

...so I'm very hurt by my dad..

I have so many mixed emotions about him
That is HURTS.. he-...I love him but at the same time I HATE HIS GUTS.. but at the same time I love him I don't understand..

I just want love..but he wouldn't help me while I was crying my eyes out and panicking..

I'm truly sorry if this triggers someone

You can have your opinions about my dad but

I don't know how to feel about him..

So.. yeah..I love you guys<3