Nathan's P.O.V
It was July and things were going so well. We had a second number one with Glad you came and it had been there for two weeks, and the album was nearly done. More importantly I hadn't had a breakdown since my birthday which meant things with the boys were less strained, it was difficult having only Max and Chelle know fully what happened with Chloe, and sometimes I think the others just think i'm being a moody teenager and should grow up.
Today we were heading to the studio to try and pen some final songs. Tom and Seev were at their girlfriends so Max Jay and me got in the car and headed down to the studio.
'Here Nath you're quiet today man' said Jay pulling my hat over my eyes.
'Just thinking Bird' I replied, I was thinking and although I said I hadn't had a breakdown since my birthday I couldn't get the whole thing off my mind and was determined to get a song down today about it.
'Here guys' said Martin snapping me out of my thoughts. Once we got into the studio we sat down and decided the jobs for the day. Tom Seev and Jay had some vocals to lay down for a song siva wrote and I wanted to get in a room and write. I walked into the lounge area and just got out my notebook and started writing exactly what I felt about Chloe.
'I can't believe I had to see, the girl of my dreams cheating on me.
The pain it caused has left me dead inside, i'm going to make sure you regret that night'
I liked the way this was going and continued to write for an hour before getting into the booth and laying down some vocal ideas. As I got more into it, the angrier I got and I knew that this song was going to be the perfect revenge on that bitch.
Max P.O.V.
I had been watching Nathan all morning because he had been uncharacteristically quiet in the van and that worried me. I had promised his mum I wouldn't let him slip back into the quiet depression that he often did, I felt the closest too him at the moment like a brother, and didn't want him hurting.
When we got into the studio, he skulked off to a corner and wrote which is the way he worked best so I left him too it. About an hour later he got up and took his laptop into the recording booth, after speaking to Stuart (studio guy) for a minute he walked to a mic and put his headphones. At first I just watched him, and he seemed calm enough but he gradually he got more and more agitated and consequently I got more worried. I walked into the studio and asked Stuart to make it so I could here what Nathan was singing. From what I could hear the song was good, but definitely about Chloe.
'It's clear to me the lies you use, the ones that kill me ain't hurting you' he sang this line then looked down as if deep in thought. Then suddenly he looked up threw the mic stand on the floor along with his headphones before storming out.
'NATHAN' I yelled after him, but it was clear that he wasn't stopping anytime soon. I ran after him into the corridor but could only see Tom.
'Mate you seen Nath?' I asked
'Yes I've bloody seen him, grumpy twat' Tom replied, 'he just shoved past me without so much as a word.'
'Sorry mate, I'll talk to him' I said sympathetically
'He's not your responsibilty Max' tom said, 'he needs to grow up sometime' and he walked off shaking his head. I got where he was coming from, but none of them knew what had happened. You shouldn't ever have to go through what Nathan had, let alone at his age. I walked into the bathroom and saw Nathan leaning his head again the wall.
'Nath...' I said cautiously not wanting to startle him. He didn't appear to hear me so I stepped forward, placing a hand on his shoulder. He swung round as if to punch my lights out but I grabbed his shoulders to stop him. When he saw it was me he just crumpled into my arms and I held him while he cried.
'What's going on Nath?' I asked 'I...I thought you were past this whole Chloe thing?' He shoved me back angrily.
'You know what Max maybe I can't just get over it! It kills me every fucking day to know that she didn't love me and didn't even respect me enough to tell me. The fact that she would rather go behind my back. Do you know what she has done to my self esteem huh?! I look in the mirror every single goddamn day and hate myself, I'm fat I have disgusting hair and I look twelve years old!! Who the hell would want to date me?!' He was physically shaking with anger and hearing this made my blood boil at what she had done to him, but instead of being calm I also started yelling.
'For god sake Nathan look at you!! Are you seriously let her ruin your life? Yeh she's a bitch but you can have anyone you bloody want! You're amazing Nathan and everyone loves you best" You're voice is incredible and don't you ever put your looks down! You're gorgeous! Your fringe and those eyes for god sake Nathan anyone would be lucky to date you!' I yelled back, my face inches from his. He was crying I was shaking and in that moment I didn't know what to do so I grabbed his face and kissed him, I couldn't believe I was doing it but in that moment it just felt so right. He pushed against my shoulders and just glared at me, neither of us knowing what to say or do. He looked down at his shoes and shuffled his feet, I didn't want to make him uncomfortable but I really wanted to kiss him again. I stepped forward and lifted his chin, his green eyes boring straight into mine and I brushed my nose against his moving my hand to his face before pushing my lips gently against his. This time he didn't push me away and I eventually felt him relax and I took this my opportunity to open our mouths and push my tongue in. Our kiss was gentle at first but gradually became way more passionate Nathan wrapping his arms around my waist, I pushed him backwards agaisnt the wall, one hand on the wall behind him and one on the back of his neck. The fireworks between us were incredible.
'MAX! MAX WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!' I could hear Tom yelling from the corridor and we were snapped out of our embrace. I looked at Nathan and smiled.
'We'll talk about this' I smiled weakly at him and he nodded.
*4 Hours later*
We were preparing to leave the studio and I had not smiling since. I had given Nathan a chorus for the song which we had called Warzone and the album had been completed ready for release in November and we were off home. Cos Chelle and me lived up in Manchester I stayed with Nathan when I was in London and I knew we needed to talk about us and me and Chelle. My brain was all confused but right now all I wanted was to kiss Nathan again, I know its cheating but I can't stop thinking about him. We stepped out of the studio and I was about to get in the van when someone tapped me on the shoulder, I turned around and saw Chelle standing behind me. She flung her arms around me and I just hugged her.
'Chelle what are you doing here?!' I asked letting her go.
'I got a week off' she smiled 'so thought I would surprise my man' She turned around and saw Nath sweeping him up in a hug as well. I saw his face fall as he looked at me. My heart broke right then and there because in that moment I realised what had happened to me. I loved Michelle very much but that was not the problem.
I was IN love with Nathan Sykes...
AUTHOR NOTE
AHH POOR MAX!! let me know what you think guys along with any pointers and ideas :)
