AN: Sorry its been so long guys!!! I've had so much going on with uni and home things.
Anyway in chapter 4 we've moved forward to just after the boys did ellen etc and are about to start the code tour. Enjoy!
Max P.O.V
The tour had finally started. We had been so excited for months and after everything kicking off in America last month we couldn't be happier as a band. In terms of my personal life however things were not quite so simple, and after somewhat of an interesting christmas and new year. As everyone no doubt saw from the papers, we spent some time in Barbados over the new year to perform for Simon Cowell as well as taking a holiday. The week before we went Tom and Siva announced that they were taking their girlfriends with them and I should take Chelle. I was gutted because I just wanted to spend the week with Nathan but the more I thought about it Nathan and I wouldn't be able to be together anyway due to the scrutiny of the press etc so I decided to take Chelle but also decided that I would tell her everything...
*Flashback*
'Nathan please answer me' I begged banging on his bathroom door. The others had all gone down for dinner but when I had noticed Nathan's absence, Jay had said he wasn't feeling well and had said he felt unwell. I had excused myself to say I would check on him and had found him locked in his bathroom refusing to talk to me. 'Just tell me you're ok at least.' I said
'I would be better if you buggered off Max if i'm honest' he replied, his words cutting through me
'What have I done Nate please just tell me' I said. He threw open the door in moved me so I was against the wall. He was so angry he was shaking, he was actually scaring me a little bit.
'What have you done?!' he yelled in my face 'for fuck sakes Max how can you even ask me that. You have been living at my house for months now telling me you have feelings for me and that you would end it with Michelle and yet here you are flaunting your 'perfect' bloody relationship right in my godamn face. Is this a punishment for me huh? Is it?' he was clutching onto my shirt collar practically spitting in my face.
'Wh...why would it be a punishment Nath?' I questioned
'You told me you were ok with taking this thing slow Max, but tell me the truth is this all because I wouldn't sleep with you? IS IT??' He pushed away from me walking out onto the balcony of his and Jay's room. My heart felt like it was tearing in two. How could he even think that of me? I loved him. I slowly approached him on the balcony, aware that he was still extremely angry.
'Nathan..ple...please just listen to me i'm begging you' I practically whispered leaning against the balcony next to him. 'I didn't want to bring her here but I thought ow much press attention this holiday was going to get and didn't want to get caught with you without Michelle knowing about us first. I may not want to be with her anymore Nath but that sure as hell doesn't mean she deserves any of this'. I was getting angry now. 'I bought her on this trip with the intention of telling her about my feelings for you, she knows things haven't been right with me and her I just thought I would tell her now.' I became more gentle now and I turned his face towards me although he still looked down at the ground. 'Nathan look at me' I pleaded with him he slowly looked up his gorgeous meeting mine. 'I would never EVER push you to do anything you weren't comfortable with ok, and if we're being perfectly honest, I'm not ready to take that step with you either. Ok? We take this one step at a time Nate, beginning with me telling Chelle tomorrow.' He finally broke a smile and hugged me round my waist.
'i'm sorry Max' he whispered before looking up at me and giving me a peck on the cheek. He made to walk back into the room but I wound my hand back around his waist pulling him in front of me, we stared at each other for what felt like an eternity before leaning in and brushing our lips gently against each others. I wrapped my arms tighter around his waist and he snaked his around my neck deepening the kiss. I loved this boy so so much.
'Max! Max where are you' We quickly pulled apart as Michelle walked in, I hoped to god she hadn't seen anything.
'What's going on Max?' she asked looking at my arm still round Nathan's waist
'I um..I'
'He was trying to cheer me up Chelle' Nathan said 'I was really down about a girl and he was comforting me'. Thank god for Nathan I thought to myself. Michelle threw her arms around Nathan.
'Oh baby is it still Chloe?' She asked before leading him out of the room.
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As the week went on Michelle and I grew further apart and I took the desicion to tell her when we were on the so called 'couples cruise' that me tom and seev were going on with the girls, whilst Jay and Nathan opted to have a lads day by the pool.
Anyway when we were relaxing as a pair on the boat I leant over to her.
'Chelle' I whispered
'Mhmm' she replied looking at me. When she saw the worry on my face. 'Max whats up?' She looked worried now and she sat up facing me.
'Chelle I...I'm sorry to say this I really am' I had started to cry and looked down at the ground before feeling her hug me. She leant toward my ear and whispered. 'You don't love me anymore'. I pushed away.
'What I...how do you know?' I couldn't even hide it from her
'Max I've know for ages sweetheart, I see the way you look at Nathan (his name causing me a sharp intake of breath) I saw you on the balcony the other night before he tried to cover for you.'. She smiled at me before wiping the tears off my cheeks.
'You're not angry with me' I asked
'No babe i'm not' now when we get back to shore and the UK we act like we are still together for as long as you need while you work out your relationship with Nathan ok?' she smiled at me and I scooped her into a hug.
'You Michelle Keegan are a star' I grinned.
*end of flashback*
So now we were sat at the first interview of our first night on tour in Nottingham and me and Nathan were being interviewed by ourselves. I could not stop looking at Nath but my heart broke when during the interview he said how 'valentines day was just a massive screw you to single people'. I wanted to jump on him and yell that he wasn't single.
I have never been so happy as I was now. Making it big worldwide with my boys and having the best boy as the love of my life...
life was good.
SOOOO let my know what you think guys I really appreciate your comments etc not sure where i'm going next maybe after the tour hahah but the VMA's will be soonish :D hope you're enjoying x
