MAX
It had been a week and Nathan and me had barely spoken. Chelle and I had been staying in a hotel so we could have some private time and she spent the whole week asking me what was wrong. Today was album release day, November 4th and also the day chelle was going home.
'Ok you got everything?' I asked whilst slinging my bag over my shoulder and grabbing her suitcase. I'd taken my case round to Jay's the day before so I could take Chelle straight to the station before heading down to work.
'Yeah I have thanks baby' she looked at me smiling. I loved her a lot I really did but my head was just such a mess right now and I definitely needed some space to clear my head, hence why I was staying at Jay's and not Nathan's like I normally would.
I walked her to the station and we found the platform for the Manchester train.
'Call me as soon as you get home ok sweetie' i told her kissing her before pulling her into my arms.
'Max...' she said warily 'I don't know what has been going on with you this week and I don't need to know ok but whatever it is you need to know that I will be here for you through anything ok. I love you a lot and I need you to remember that.' she smiled, hugged me and got on the train.
'I love you too' I said before she closed the door behind her. After the traian had pulled away I decided to walk to work in an attempt to calm down before I got there and had to face Nathan.
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I walked into the office and the lads were all already there. Tom stood up pulling me into a hug and patted me on the back.
'Heya Mate' I said before pulling out a chair and sitting down. 'Alright Lads?' I addressed the others in the group.
'Yeh cheers mate are you? How was Chelle?' Jay asked. At this my head shot up and looked straight at Nathan who just dropped his head and pulled his hat further down.
In fact Nathan barely said a word for the whole meeting and I could see Tom getting more and more agitated as it went on. Someone had just asked what we wanted to do as to releasing the next track, and we all said Warzone except for Nathan who was just sat on his phone.
'Bloody Hell Nathan' bellowed Tom, 'do you even give a shit?' He was stood up glaring at Nathan who just shifted slightly in his seat, the rest of the room was immediately on guard.
'Yes Tom I do, Warzone would be great'. Nathan replied quietly
'Thats it!!!! That's all you have to say?! Nathan man you seriously need to grow the hell up.' He yelled back.
'Alright Tom calm down' I said to him. Now I expected him to yell back but the yell came from the other side of the table.
'God sake Max I can speak for my goddam self you are not my brother or carer or anything' Nathan yelled and stormed out.
'The fuck is his problem?' asked Tom 'He's been like this for months Max what is going on?'
I sat down, I know it wasn't my place to tell anyone what was going on but they had to know.
'Guys Nathan has been going through a really hard time..I mean like super messed up.' I began.
'Tell us everything' Jay said sympathetically
'Remember when we write Warzone how upset Nathan was? Well that's for a reason, its based on something that happened to him not too long ago.' I said
'Shit' breathed Siva, 'What happened?'
'It's from the weekend we went down to Gloucester to promote Glad you came, and we were going out for Nath's birthday but Chloe called and cancelled. Basically we went over to her house to give her some presents and check up on her and her brother answered the door, he was refusing to let us in and I knew something was wrong. I wish with everything I have that I had stopped Nathan going upstairs.' I swallowed finding it hard to carry on. 'Nathan basically found Chloe in bed with another guy. I mean the kid was 17 no one should ever have to see that but especially not at 17! It killed him and I swore never to tell but we saw her on his birthday and it broke him all over again guys. Thats when he got the ideas for Warzone.' I breathed heavily and held my head in my hands.
'Holy Shit' said Tom 'that's rough poor kid.'
'Exactly' I replied 'so just give him a bit of break guys, and for god sake don't tell him I told you'. I got up and went to find Nathan. I couldn't find him in the bathroom or the other office and then I heard some piano and went into one of the Practice rooms we had down at work. Nathan was sitting playing Warzone and crying his eyes out, I opened the door quietly and just stood in the doorway listening. When he got to the end he put his hands in his lap but kept his head down.
'Go away Max' he whispered
I stepped in the door slightly. 'Nathan I am not going anywhere before I know you're ok.'
'OK!!' He yelled 'How can I be OK??!! The day you kissed me Max i felt something, I never thought I would say it but I did godamn it and I thought you did too. But then Michelle got here and I realised I could never be your's because of her. So why did you do it Max...why..' He burst into tears and I ran to him and held him, rocking him until he eventually relaxed in my arms.
'I'll admit Nathan when I kissed you I had no idea what I was doing but I also felt something. No not something I fetl fireworks which I had never felt before.' He looked at me as if say yeh right. 'Nathan i'm not lying to you, I nearly didn't come to work today because a) I felt so bad for spending the week with Michelle when, before she arrived, all I could think about was spending the week with you and b) I thought I was going to kiss you in front of everyone.' I laughed slightly and felt him smile against my chest. 'Nathan I don't know where this will take us but I know that more anything I want to find out please.' I lifted his chin so we were at eye level and pushed our lips together without trying to push him too far. He lent back slightly just enough to whisper 'OK' against my lips before wrapping his arms around my neck and pulling me back for a much more passionate kiss. I wound my arms around his waist, pulling him as close as I could but did it too much and I fell back off the stool leaving Nathan in hysterics. 'Hey' I pouted
'Sorry Babe' he whispered. Jesus he sounded sexy, I grabbed his arms and went to pull him on top of me. 'Wait Max the door' he walked over and locked it before coming and sitting on the floor opposite me. I ran my hand down his face before pulling him forward so he was sat on my lap and kissed him hard. I ran my tongue along his bottom lip and he opened his mouth as our tongues danced together in a passionate battle. To my surpise Nathan initiated the next move, frocing me back so he was lying on top of me, pushing his tongue deeper causing me me to moan, I ran my hands down his back and under his shirt as he began to ground his hips into mine. God this felt amazing. Things were getting so heated so quickly and I wasn't even slightly worried about what might be to come.
'Um Max I really hope that is your phone buzzing right now' laughed Nathan pulling away allowing me to sit up.
'Hello' I replied stroking Nathan's back.
'Mate are you ok?' Jay asked. 'Just we're done and heading off so...'
'Yeh mate we're just coming' I replied as Nathan and me stood up. and um adjusted ourselves before leaving the room.
'Max' Nath said as we headed back
'Yes' I smiled at him
'Stay at mine tonight please?' He asked 'I feel like I need you to be there'.
'Of course Nath...of course I will' I replied hugging him.
'You two sorted then?' coughed Jay
'Um yeh man it's cool' said Nath before a rather sheepish looking tom appeared.
'Heya..um Nath I'm sorry I kicked off mate' he said
'Me too mate' laughed Nath, 'I know I can be a right git at times.
'Well...' laughed tom earning a playful shove from Nathan before we all headed out of the door. I agreed with Jay that I would stay with Nathan and we all went our seperate ways.
I was so happy being able to go home with Nath but also I felt that all of us were in a good place and this was just the beginning.
Hey guys! Sorry it's been so long! thanks so so so much for the comments. I am kind of building up to the start of everything in America so thats why I travel forward a few weeks in each chapter. I really appreciate feedback so let me know.
lots of love Soph xx
