DEFINE LOVE 2 (TRILOGY TO Diary Of A Gay Black Teen)

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Tre P.O.V

I walked along the beach thinking of how a married life would be with Jay. We been apart for only a day and I can't even take that. I just hope he ain't doing nothing stupid with them ugly ass niggas. Ugh I cant stand them.

Me, Jakayla, Chris, Kelly, David, and the kids been at the beach all day long. It just feels so peaceful out here. The breeze was so cool and it felt so serene. I wish I could live in this moment forever and be care free about every little thing.

Sooner or later I know reality will slap me dead in the face. I gathered a chunk of sand and helped the kids build a castle. I knew they were really enjoying this trip because every time I ask if their ready to go home, they scream NO.

Everybody else seemed happy too. Chris and David were all over each other playing around in the water, Jakayla and Jasmine were drawing hearts in the sand, and Kelly thirsty ass was flirting with all of the lifeguards. She so damn pitiful. I just shook my head as the kids pulled me to the water.

We threw around their beach ball and it landed in some man lap. Instead of throwing it back he held it up to his face like the shit amazed him. His body was looking good but what a creep.

"Aye." I called out on my way over. He still held it and ignored me. "EXCUSE ME, that's my kids ball." I went to get it and he placed it down, took his shades off, and looked up at me and grinned. "Oh my God." I cant believe this.

I gave Kendrick a big hug and he stood up with me still holding on to him. I love his tender embrace. I was so excited to see him, but what he doing here. "So you stalking me now Dr.Moss." I asked while still holding him tight.

For some reason I didn't want to let him go. I felt a vibration flow through me in his arms. "Don't you go there." He said seriously as I called him by his last name. I laughed and he continued, "But no, Jay actually invited me to the wedding." I finally let him go and he showed me the text from months ago and the invitation we just issued out to locate the venue.

All my mouth could say was, "Oh.......If this gone be awkward for you. You don't have to do this." I said just because it would only be awkward as hell for me. What the hell was Jay thinking. Damn I keep forgetting he knows nothing about what we had going on while he was incarcerated.

"No, all I ever wanted was to see you happy and I wish you and him a long lasting marriage." He always been so sweet. Why do I still have feelings for this damn man. I never even realized I loved him so much till now.

"So how yo life been." "Great actually. I'm getting married too, and I would like for you to come." He pat my arm and shocked me. I jumped and stood back a little.

"For real. Who, When, and Where?" I acted like I was the least bit of interested. I really don't care. "A woman I've been on and off with since highschool." "Oh a woman again." I wasn't surprised. "Yeah, I think she's the one." Yeah that's what they all say.

"Um well I'm happy for you." I clearly lied. I'm so selfish. I don't want to be with him, but I don't want him to be with no one else. "That sounds convincing." He chuckled a little. "I'm serious. Although you still have a special place in my heart, I'm happy for you. Your a great man and whoever this woman is, really deserves to have you." I lied again. I just can't help it. I want what's best for him but I don't. I hate feeling like this.

It kind of makes me question if I want to marry Jay right now. What a dilemma. What am I thinking there's no words to describe the love I have for Jay. Of course I'm marrying him because its not everyday that you get lucky enough to find your soul mate. "Thank you." He replied.

I went on and introduced Kendrick to Jakayla and Kelly, since he was attending the wedding and because they were now all over me. They so damn nosey, I can't with them. Kelly was being a hoe as usual. I'm really glad now that I never mentioned anything about Kendrick to any one but Chris, and David would be happy to see his dad I'm sure. They have the greatest relationship.