(Hope you like this cute little chapter.)
Chapter 17
Joey's P.OV.
I'm so stupid, I shouldn't have answers the phone, I shouldn't have agreed to meet him. I shouldn't of did anything with him. But it happened and those feelings are back. I don't know what to do. I still love Michael and right now he needs me.
Thomas, I love Thomas, right? Something about him doesn't seem right. I should love him, I had sex with him. Does he love me? Would I love him back? I don't get those feelings that I get when I'm with Michael.
What's up with Michael? He still loves me, I still love him. We talked a bit over the phone but he will never say it again. I miss the closeness we used to have, he'd tell me everything that happened over the week and I would also. Now I feel like I'm so behind on what's been going on with him.
Thomas, damn it. I've fucked up, big time. I don't even think I like him like that anymore. I probably was just sexually frustrated that day. I was so used to 'having fun' on the weekends with Michael I guess I missed it. I feel so bad, I'm a terrible person. Should I break up with Thomas. But that would break his heart, I know he doesn't trust me when I'm not with him. He fears that I'm with Michael and odds are If I'm not with him, I'm thinking about him. I'm a terrible boyfriend.
Thomas tries not to let it show but I see it when I say I got to go. He knows I leave just so could check up on Michael. I pretty much check up in him every other day. And since school ended a week ago, it's not like I have a ton of homework to do.
"Joey?" I snap out of the battle I was having in my head. I look up confused to see my mom looking at me.
"What?" I ask annoyed, I insistently get a headache from over thinking.
"I was going to tell you that your cereal is getting soggy." I look down at my honeycombs and huff. I hate soggy cereal, I must have poured too much milk.
My mom walks out the kitchen and I look at the time. How long have I been sitting here. Ten, fifteenth, twenty minutes maybe. Ew, I flush the cereal down the toilet.
What am I going to do?
Thomas is coming over today. I wonder what we should do? Oh I have the perfect idea. I text him to bring a pair of swim trunks. He asks why and if he should bring money but I don't answer.
We do the same thing all the time, I want to spice it up a bit. I'm trying to make our relationship work, Thomas seems distant, like he knows something. I really like him, but do I love him? Do I love him more than Michael?
I push those thoughts away as I go to open the door.
It's Thomas, he's in green camo swim trunks with a cute white t-shirt. He smiles and I lean up to him and give him a kiss.
"Going out!" I yell back to whoever is listening.
"Okay, honey!" My mom yells back before I shut the door.
"Are we going to the pool?" I take Thomas's hand and pull him down the street.
"Shhush! It's a surprise." It's hot out and I can't tell whether it's my hand that is sweating or if it's his.
"I can drive us there, We don't have to walk." He says smiling.
"It'll ruin the surprise if you did." He laughs and I pull myself under his arm, he's kinda cool. Its refreshing.
"Why are you cold?" I ask intertwining our hands.
"Car air conditioner." With that we fall into a comfortable silence as I led us to my favorite burger place.
"This isn't the pool." He says once I unravel from him and drag him into the restaurant.
"No shit, plus who said we were going to the pool." He looks confused for a second but just laughs it off.
We find a seat and I ask him what he wants before getting up and ordering our food. I love today already. I come back and Thomas is smiling. I sit down on the opposite side of the booth we are in.
"You're always smiling." I state while putting my hands in my face admiring his features.
"That's only because I'm with you." His smile gets bigger and I bite my lip before moving over to his side. I attack him with my lips. I pull away with a smile. He always tastes like cherry chapstick.
I cuddle into him. "Why do you taste so yummy?" His arm is around me while his head leans on my mine comfortably.
"Um, I don't know." He also smells nice, like just got out the shower nice.
We talk for a bit about stupid stuff until our food gets here with two sweating water bottles. I got a chicken salad and he got a classic burger. Burger places have good salads, don't judge me.
We eat and share our food. I haven't had fun like this in a while.
"Let's go!" I say jumping up trying to pull him with me but he is too heavy.
"Where's the check?" He said standing up and stretching.
"I paid for it already, now let's go." I made sure we had everything before taking his hand and pulling him down the street.
"So much walking." He pouts as I hug into him.
"We're almost there."
The public pool. I use a pass and payed for him.
"I'll pay you back." He said once we made it inside.
"No you won't. " I smile at him. For such a nice day like today nobody is here. I lay on my towel and Thomas does the same. The only kids here are little kids with their parents over In the kiddies pool.
"This is nice." Thomas says. I close my eyes and relax to the sounds around me. I wish there was a beach near by, that would be nicer but this will do.
After a while I turn to look at Thomas. His nose is so perfect. His cheeks slightly red due to the heat. He's staring up at the sky with his hands behind his head.
"Your starring." He states and that brings me back to the day when we went to go get ice cream. He turns and we stare at each other.
I try not to smile but I break and so does he and we start laughing.
"Wanna go in?" I ask him.
"Sure."
We swam a bit and talked a lot. We had races but he always won. The day was amazing but I found myself thinking of him as a friend. Not boyfriend. We walked hand in hand back to my house. And I couldn't stop my mind from over thinking. I'd catch Thomas looking at me and I'd smile before going back to my thoughts.
(Okay so only some parts are cute but, so tell me your feelings on the story so far. See you tomorrow)
