Serenphoria

Drifting Away

I don't know what to say or do anymore......

I'm done with life. I'm done with the world.
I'm just done.
I'm alone.
I'm lost.
I'm like a little piece of paper, fragile and I have a lot of words,
bad, awful, horrendous, disgusting words, written all over me,
You just can't see them......
I'm like a small fluffy cloud in the sky, Too sensitive, Too fragile and light to the touch.
I swear I could break at any given second......
I'm like glass, I look so tough and strong on the outside,
but really on the inside I'm so so weak and can be too easily smashed into little insignificant pieces.
I'm insecure,
I'm scared and I'm alone.
So so alone......
Forever alone.
I'm invisible and constantly held prisoner in my own toxic mind.
There is no escape.
I'm trapped for eternity.
Nobody can see all the cracks that run throughout my mind and my body.
Nobody realizes how much pain I have to suffer through mentally.
I'm like a small piece of paper and I'm like a small fluffy cloud,
I'm just drifting away.
I'm slowly drifting and drifting and drifting and drifting away from this big, scary, loud and lonely world where I have never belonged until I go completely......
Until I'm no longer here and until I no longer exist...
Will I ever come back?
Who knows.
Will there ever be hope for me out there?
Who knows.
Is there someone out there that can save me before it's just too late?
I'd like to believe there is.
Is he already saving me?
Maybe.
Does he know that?
Nope.
Sadly, he doesn't even know I exist......
Will he ever find out?
Will he ever find me?
Will he ever be able to properly save me for real?
Who knows as only time can tell for now and our destiny and fate has already been set and planned out for us, so all we can do now is be patient and let the threads of time do it's thing I guess.
They're just as weak and fragile as me though so really,
Who knows?

Who am I?
I am a person.
I'm just an ordinary person.
In fact,
I don't even feel like a person anymore,
I feel like a shadow just hiding away in the darkness, just existing.
Barely there, barely alive,
I am nothing....... I am nothing.......