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Achilles Come Down (BL)

TW: Suicide attempt, drugs

Achilles, Achilles, Achilles, come down, Won't you get up off, get up off the roof?, The self is not so weightless, nor whole and unbroken, Remember the pact of our youth, Where you go, I'm going, so jump and I'm jumping, Since there is no me without you, Soldier on, Achilles, Achilles, come down, Won't you get up off, get up off the roof?

Nestor's POV

The earth looks so beautiful from up here. So does the sky. Soon I will meet both of them. "Nestor!!!" I hear a voice. I immidiatley recognize it. Only one person could yell so anxiously my name when they seem me on a roof; Odysseus. "Hey Odysseus!" I greet him. "What are you doing?" He asks, although he knows well what I want to do. "What does it look like?" I ask him, in a nirvana voice. "Are you high?" He asks me. "Yeah. I couldn't gather up the courage otherwise." I tell him.

"Nestor, come down please. Get up off the roof. You're scaring me so fucking much. Please come down." He tells me in an unsteady voice. "No Odysseus. I'm sorry, but I can't come down." I tell him and make a step closer to the edge. "Wait! Don't you remember the pact we made when we were younger?" He asks me. I try to forget. "Where you go, I'm going. If you jump then I'm jumping. Nestor, there is no me without you." He tells me.

"Odysseus, I can't handle it anymore. Life is too hard for me. You are the only one who gets me. Everyone else just seems me as the nerd who has no life. My parents love me and I know it, but their work keeps them busy for too long. I'm alone with my thoughts all day. Odysseus, I can't do it anymore." I say with my eyes closed, trying to handle the tears. I hear a sound next to me.

I open my eyes and see Odysseus on the roof with me. "Hey." He tells me. "While you were talking, I came up here. I did listen to what you said though." He tells me. "I can help, Nestor. I've visited many sites and I have watched seminars on how to help those with suicidal thoughts. Just let me help. Please Nestor." He tells me.

"It's no use, Odysseus." I tell him. "You don't believe in me?" He asks me, playing a trick. I stay silent for a while, thinking what to say. "I believe in you. I just don't believe in me. I can't give you stray believes that you can save me." I say and let myself fall.

"Nestor!!" Odysseus's voice rings in my ear. A yelp escapes my mouth as I fall. Something suddenly hurts my wrist. I open my eyes and see Odysseus's hand gripping mine tightly. "I am not letting you go, Nestor." He tells me and I burst into crying.

Slowly yet steadily, he lifts me back on the roof. I don't even realize how I am moved inside the house.

Odysseus's POV

As Nestor falls, I run towards the edge and grab his arm tightly. I slowly pull him upwards on the roof. He has broken into crying. I place an arm around his shoulders and quickly guide him away from the roof. I take him inside the house and place him on the couch. I bring him some water and hand it to him.

Sobbing, he brings the glass to his lips. He takes a few sips and hands it back to me. I place it on the table. I put my hand on his leg and look at him. "Nestor-" I start but I don't think he is ready to talk just yet. I sit next to him on the couch and start rubbing circles on his back. He turns towards me and falls on me. He buries his face in the crook of my neck and I wrap an arm around him. I caress his back.

"It's okay now, Nestor." I tell him. "You are here, with me and you're safe." I tell him. "Why did you do that? Why did you grab me? I would have escaped this world dammit!" He tells me in between sobs. "I couldn't have let you, Nestor." I admit.

"Why?!" He hits my chest with his fist. "Nestor, you have no idea how important you are to me!" I say, rather loudly, making him hide inside my chest further. He grips my shirt tightly. "What would I do without you?" I ask him. "Live your life? I'm just me. You have other friends. I can't be that special to you." Nestor tells me. "You are nothing like everyone else." I tell him.

"And you are more than a friend to me." I blurt out. Fuck, this is not the time to come out! "Huh?" Nestor asks. "Nothing, forget I said anything." I tell him, trying to cover up my mistake. "Odysseus, what did you say? Is there a possibility that you are not straight?" He asks me. Now there is no use to hide it anymore. "I...ummm...I actually figured out that I am pansexual. But that's not the time to talk about it." I say. "Why?" He asks. "Because we need to talk about you." I tell him. "Can we...not talk?" He asks me. "Can we just stay like this?" He asks me, tensing up in my grip. "Sure." I reply.

I lay back until my back finds the couch and keep Nestor's head close to my head. "I am not comfortable, sorry. The sofa is too small." He says. "Don't apologize, silly. Wait." I pick Nestor up and walk towards the bedroom. My one arm around his back tightly and other around his legs.

I place him on the bed and lay next to him. He shifts towards me and places his head on my chest. With my arm that's around his back, I pull him closer to me. I soon realize that he fell asleep. I place a soft kiss on his forehead and wear my earphones. I must not fall asleep.

Nestor's POV

I am a very light sleeper, so when Odysseus places his lips on my head, I feel it. I wake up but keep my eyes shut. My cheeks burn up.

Few moments later, he starts playing with my hair. I blush again. He quickly removes his hand from my hair. "Nestor, are you awake?" He whispers. "I saw your blush, so don't try to deny it." He continues. I open my eyes slowly. His breath hitches as he realizes that I was indeed not asleep.

"Why were you pretending to be asleep?" He asks me. "Because if I opened my eyes, you would stop touching my hair. And I was right." I say. "You liked it?" He asks me and I nod. "And you didn't think of it, of me as weird?" He asks me. "Odysseus, you know I am gay. As long as you are not playing with me, it's normal and even desirable." I tell him. "Of course I am not playing with you." He tells me. "Then, you may continue." I tell him and he giggles. He kisses my nose and continues playing with my hair.

"I promise, we will go through this together. I will be here for you all the time." He tells me. Maybe I can handle life a little better now. I slowly drift into a happy sleep.

A/N

It's not very good, I know and I am sorry. I will try to compensate for that later on. If you can, please point out what you didn't like and what you did like. Thank youuu <33333