Everyone has a reason to look forward to the next cycle. Someone that makes living less painful and all the more bearable.
But what would you do if that reason was taken away from you, like everything else?
...
You desperately wait, hoping that he'll arrive soon. Hoping that maybe ... Just, maybe — you are wrong ...
You wait there ... But no one is coming.
Everyone that did survive have already arrived...
" ... "
Silence ...
...
You clench your chestplate ... This war has taken everything from you.
Your home, your loved ones, your life ...
In that moment, you wish you could just scream out all of your sorrow and anger.
You hated this war. You hated how everyone you have ever known suffered because of it.
But why would your emotions matter? Why would you matter?
In a spark-beat they would abandon you if it meant survival for them. Those who truly cared for others have perished alongside the ones they sought to help.
...
Enough.
...
They were there for you every other cycle, of course they would act that way ... They cared for their own spark, and wanted to live.
Do not blame them for his death ...
At the least, he is in a happier place.
Without struggle, or pain.
...
" Y/N? " Said one of your comrades.
"You've been sitting there for a long time ... Is something bothering you? "
He continued.
" ... I need time to process. I — I would like to be alone. " You replied.
Your comrade simply nods at your response, he knows better than to pry into your feelings.
...
"What would it be like if you were one with the All Spark?
End it all, here and now, nothing would change from what's about to come ..."
...
You stood up — you are gonna get offlined, sooner or later.
Might as well do it by your own servos.
.
.
.
Grabbing a smaller-than-normal energon cube, you transformed and drove away, searching for an area to end it all silently, and alone. Eventually finding the area you were looking for.
You shifted your form back, holding the energon cube in your servo, glowing a calming hue of blue.
You closed your optics, and held it close ... You had nothing to look forward to anymore.
The friend you had, he made everything all the more bearable in the darkest moments. And now he is gone.
You start to blame yourself, maybe, just maybe... If you insisted to go, you could have saved him.
But could you have managed to pull it off, without risking your own safety and life fully? — He would have never wanted you to sacrifice yourself for him, nor risk your spark for him.
.
.
.
You transformed your left servo into a gun, as with the right you held the energon cube close to where your spark chamber would be ...
...
I had everything, I had something.
I had someone, then I had none.
... How would would it be like if I were one with the All Spark ?
...
BANG — BOOM!
It is the last thing you heard, before everything went dark.
...
You had shot yourself, and the energon cube exploded.
Your body fell limp, damaged severely.
Ironic is it not? The substance ... The fuel that gives you life was the same thing you used to end it.
( Lycoris Radiata is a flower that symbolizes death ... - Lyliarc )
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Shockwave x Reader
FanfictionCybertron was once a beautiful planet, but eons of war ravaged it. You are one without faction, not wanting to be part of this war. But perhaps, something may change. As the title reads, this story will mostly be about you and Shockwave. I will be t...
