The one with the mic check

chapter 16 Moving out

N/A warning this has self harm in this chapter if you're feeling upset and can relate to this please go and speak to someone who u feel comfortable with Thanks. 

When I saw that I had to get out of here, I can't see Huddy's face. Not for a while. I grab a bag and pack my clothes in it. I pack one of Huddy's t-shirts because I wear them when I head to bed, and I love his smell. I ring Maddy and she says. "Hey, Hazel, Ahmed and I heard what happened. You okay?" "No, I need somewhere else to stay." "You're staying at my house, there's a key under the doormat and the second room on the left is yours. And Hazel and I will always have your back. We don't believe those fuck whits and remember chicks before dicks." Maddy says. "Thanks I don't know what I'd do without you guys." I say. "Don't worry about that now, focus on yourself and get out of there schools ending soon." "Okay, love you bye" "Love you two, bye." She says, She must have been waiting for this day to happen.

I leave my key behind and put Maddy's address on it so if he wants to talk he knows where to find me. Lucario knows I'm leaving, he starts to cry and so do I. "I'll miss you so much, poo on his bed for me okay." I tell Lucario, he gives me those puppy eyes saying please don't leave. But I have to ignore that.

Tears are rolling down my face as I'm about to walk out the door. I nearly have a mental breakdown. I tell myself to wait until I get to Maddy's. I look back and my heart breaks knowing this will be the last time I look at the house and see Lucario and all of Huddy's pets. I managed to shut the door before Lucario ran. I take the train and get off at Potter more street, where Madds lives. I arrive at her house and it's smaller than Chase's but that makes it perfect. 

I find the key and open the door. I love it, it's so warm and cozy and it has a bookworm style to it. Which comforts me. I look in the room that is mine and It has Billie Eilish merch everywhere she must have this just in case of this emergency. I changed into my PJs, that's Huddy's oversized woolly jumper. I can't fall asleep without it. I tried to and got no sleep and I can't risk it because of the baby. I start crying and have a mental breakdown. I'm thinking of cutting my wrist but that won't help anything, it'll make it worse. Then my anti-me voice comes in and says I deserve it for the lives I ruined. And before I know it I'm walking towards the kitchen and my hand heads for the knife. 

I slit it thro my skin and the pain isn't as bad as I'm feeling now. Then I do another one and another until my arm is full of blood. Maddy comes in and sees this "Steph, NO." She yells. I drop the knife to the floor and fall on my knees while I'm crying. Maddy picks me up and tries to hold me and bring me to my bed "What's wrong?" Maddy asks. "The comments." I replied. I get out my phone and show her, I see rage go across her face. "Right I'm going to Olivia bitch's house, don't cut yourself it won't help." She says. I nod, Then she walks out the door. And I pick up the knife again and start slitting my arm. I don't know why I'm doing this, it's like I'm in a trans. 

I hear a knock at the door, But I ignore it because I'm way too depressed. I hear a loud thud. "STEPH!" He says. He finds me sitting on my bed. I probably look like shit. "You said see you at home." "Yeah well things have gotten too overwhelming so I thought if you're mad at me and won't believe me then I'll stay with Maddy who actually believes me, I didn't do anything wrong. But nooooo you believe everybody else over your pregnant girlfriend." I Say. The blood drips down to my hands and Huddy sees this, he then walks towards me and pulls up my sleeves. He sees the cuts all over my arms and says "No please god no." He starts crying and liking all the blood off my arms. Then he hugs me and carries me to the bathroom and grabs band aids, and puts them on me. And then we walk to my room and he sits me down on the bed. 

He says "What happened?" "I read all the comments on this fake account." I show him the comments on my phone and he looks at me with anger but then says. "I'm so sorry I didn't believe you before I just thought that maybe you were hiding another personality." "It's okay but next time something similar happens talk to me before you make assumptions." "I will do that from now on promise." He says. "You're wearing my jumper." "Well It's how I fall asleep now I can't sleep without it." "So, it's like a safety blanket to you?" "Yes no matter how mad I am at you I still need it." He kisses me on the lips and says. "Come home I miss you." "You promise to stick by me?" "Yes I will get a tattoo to prove that I will." "Okay, but can I sleep here tonight anyway? I want to have some fun with Madds." I ask "Yes, but safe fun. No alcohol, I want my baby and my girl to be safe." "Okay, What's going on with the door?" "I'll fix it right now." He says, he walks to the front door and I follow. He fixes it and says "Goodbye my girl and goodbye my bun." He kisses my lips then my stomach.