I overheard Mother talking to some of her friends about marriage. I think she's getting increasingly worried about the Black Family line, because I'm the only one that left. The girls have all married into their families and Mother refuses to acknowledge Sirius's existence, so I'm the only one that can really bring about the pride that the family once had.
I don't even feel prideful in myself, I don't understand how she thinks I can bring change. That I will be the saving grace of the Family line and will eventually create a family.
It should probably be a bit of a scare for her that I have never once had a girlfriend. She was always a lot more interested in Sirius and his stupid relationships with girls, boys, whatevers. I hear that he's in a relationship with that Lupin boy, I have a feeling that out of all the feeble dates he's acquired, Lupin might be the one. I see the way that Sirius truly cares for the Lupin boy and how much my brother values their friendship above all.
I don't feel the same way. I think that there's probably something wrong with me. My disinterest with women never felt like a bad thing. I was too young to understand love and then I grew up... still not understanding the appeal. I even tried to look at boys a certain way but there's nothing there.
I quite like Quidditch and Charms class. I do enjoy dancing around with other Slytherin pureblood girls at Professor Slughorn's little parties, but I don't like the girls. Not the way that everyone else should do. People talk about love and attraction like it's the most natural and purest thing in the world. That true love is beautiful.
Maybe there really is something wrong with me?
I'll think about tackling that inner crisis after I've left school. I have much bigger things to deal with actually. Lucius, cousin Narcissa's husband, is trying to get me to come to one of his missions. He thinks that I need to really be out there and torment people to fully grasp what being a Death Eater is.
I don't care.
Mother is harping on about me looking at some potential suitors. Lucius wants me to go ahead and hex the next muggleborn I see. I could really just do with a game of Quidditch right about now.
R.A.B.
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There's a general tradition that Draco and his friendship group have to force themselves into whenever Valentine's starts up. They must, no matter what, spend part of the day with Theo. This is because Theo is a little punk bitch that has completely sworn off women (and men) and refuses to spend his Valentine's alone.
He really made it everyone else's problem.
Draco is fully ready to divulge in Theo's little plan on spending the unnecessary holiday with his friends at a cool café, just having platonic, wholesome fun. This is not met with any of his other friends, not even Vince and Greg. Who Draco suspects are secretly together; but Pansy says no and she's probably right. She's always been better and picking out the ones in a hidden relationship.
You can't really blame Theo for his hatred for Valentine's Day.
It's a completely unnecessary holiday that painfully reminds all the single people that they are, in fact, single. You'd have a right mind to think that at least the couple's would be able to enjoy the day, but then again, it's incredibly heteronormative.
"I mean, really," Draco says, hooking an arm around Theo's. "This whole thing about men not remembering anniversaries, forgetting to buy flowers and chocolates— or even that they can't fully enjoy their relationships! Straight people," he muttered disdainfully. "It's appalling."

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The Journal of Regulus Arcturus Black
FanfictionDraco didn't want to leave his home and denounce the Malfoy family name. But with the threat of the Dark Lord's rise at the end of Fourth Year, he had no choice in the matter. With the help of his mother and father, Draco takes on the name of his go...