Winter Falls // Taegyu

02 | He Left

Of course, everything said in the last chapter was past tense.

Our love story was a tragic one.

Started off great.. ended terribly.

I blinked.. and he was gone.

As if.. he had never existed in the first place.

Gone without any evidence that he'd ever been there.

The only thing left of him being a single message.

'Don't bother looking'

I tried to text, but I was blocked.

I spent every moment after that screaming and crying, wondering where it all went wrong.

If it was my fault.

If he was unhappy.

I was broken, and everyone could notice such.

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-Senior year, High School-

I walk into school, feeling lifeless and empty.

And pain.

Excruciating pain.

When Taehyun left, he took my heart and will to live right along with him.

He was my will to live.

And now that he's gone.. it feels like there's no point.

I walk —more like drag myself— to my locker and look in the mirror that was attached to the inside.

Hair messy and unkempt, eyes red, bags noticeable and prominent for days to come, uniform not even buttoned all the way.

Looking good..

I let out a humorless chuckle.

Oh, what love does to you.

"Yo dude, you okay?" Someone suddenly asks from behind me, startling me out of my thoughts.

"Can I be honest Yeonjun hyung?" I start, "I want to die." I tell him.

"Don't we all?" Yeonjun hyung says with a chuckle.

I chuckle along as well, maybe too much because before I know it, there are tears forming in my eyes and I'm crying.

"Beomgyu?.." Yeonjun hyung says, stunned at my sudden outburst.

"Oh Gyu, what's wrong?" He asks as he engulfs me in a hug.

I just cry harder, the nickname bringing back bittersweet memories. Yeonjun hyung hugs me with one arm as he pulls out his phone with the other, seemingly texting someone. Not even a minute later, Soobin hyung comes running down the hallway at full speed.

He pushes Yeonjun hyung away and hugs me instead. "What happened to my baby?" Soobin hyung says backing up to look at me and squeezing my shoulders.

"H-he.." I start before pausing, trying not to cry even harder.

I take a moment to collect myself before quietly beginning to whisper,

"He left."

It was quiet for a moment and I took the time to let the situation sink in even further.

He didn't just leave me.

He left us.

As if he never loved us in the first place.

Just then, Hueningkai comes running over.

"What happened?" He says between breaths.

"He.. left." Soobin hyung replies quietly.

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Since then, I was always distant, more insecure, always in my thoughts wondering if there was something about me that makes people not like me.

This happened every time.

I started liking someone just to get my heart broken.

The other times, I recovered quickly due to the short-term relationships.

But that time, I didn't think I could recover.

I felt as if I was too far gone to ever come back.

Taehyun and I stayed together for years while my other relationships only lasted up to a few weeks.

I had already been attached from day one and I kept falling harder every day.

I felt incomplete without him.

But.. a word of advice, it gets better.

Even when it seems like it never will, it does.

People say time is healing, so that's what I gave myself.

Time.

Time to accept that Taehyun had left me.

To accept that he probably never even liked me in the first place for him to leave just like that.

Time to acknowledge everything he'd done for me.

Time to relive our memories for the last time, then try to forget them.

But no matter how hard I tried, I could never forget him.

When I said he'd taken my heart along with him, I wasn't exaggerating.

I haven't been in a single relationship since then.

And while I'm doing better mentally, there are times when he seeps through the barriers of my mind.

I spent all my time trying to get over him, trying to not think about the time when 'us' existed, with occasional slip-ups of course..

Until a day came that fucked everything —including me— up.

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ik I said that this would be one chapter that I'd keep updating but I changed my mind cuz uh.. why not

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