𝟔 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐒{J.H.SXREADER}

Chapter 8

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You were eating your lunch when you remembered something to tell your mother. However you couldn't because one of the rules was to not talk while eating but the urge to tell her was growing, so you decided to overlook the rule for once.

"Mom, can I tell you something?" You asked in a small voice.

Your mother looked up from her plate with anger evident in her eyes. She pushed her plate back and stood up from the chair.

"Finish your food and follow me." She said.

You unwillingly tore your eyes from your food and faced towards her with fear evident in your eyes. "Wh-why mom?" You asked, stuttering.

She gave you a sharp glare and you immediately looked back at your unfinished plate and started eating quickly, the thing that you wanted to tell her was now long forgotten.

Your mother left the room while you were eating. You finished your food, took your plate and placed it in the sink and closed the tap after washing your hands thoroughly. After completing your task you slowly started moving your legs towards your parents' room, unwillingness in every step you took.

Your heart was pounding in your chest when you knocked on the door of your parents' room. The door opened revealing your mother with an angry look on her face.

"What did I tell you before, about the eating rules (y/n)?" She asked through gritted teeth.

You were shaking from head to toe, after seeing the deadly expression on your adopted mother's face. There was a cabinet near the door where you were standing you held the top of which for support.

You decided to answer her question not trying to upset her more with silence. "To not talk while eating." You said in a shaky voice.

"And what did you do right now?" She said while going towards her closet and taking out a leather belt from it. She wrapped the buckle of the belt around her palm and left the belt hanging.

"I'm, I'm sorry mom, I won't do it again." You said trying to hold back your tears. However your knees gave out from fear and you landed on your knees. " I'm really sorry mom, I promise I won't do it again please mom." You begged.

She started taking her steps towards you with the belt in her hands, she bit the inside of her cheek with anger.
"You broke a rule (y/n). You need to get punished. Now don't make it harder and accept your punishment." She said.

You placed the palms of your hands on the ground showing her your back to get the punishment. You accepted your fate because you knew you can't get out of this and trying to run will only make her more mad.

You closed your eyes when the first hit landed on your back. It was summer, so you were wearing only a white t-shirt which didn't shield you from the impact of the hit. As soon as the belt landed on your back the spot felt like it was on fire. It started stinging, the impact of the first hit was not over when suddenly the other hit landed.

The tears that you were trying to control started flowing from your eyes, some of fear, some of anger and some making you feel worthless. The hit didn't stop and it stung everytime. However, you closed your mouth shut trying not to make any sound as it would only piss her off more.

A low whimper escaped your mouth and your mother tilted her head towards you, you quickly covered your mouth with your hands in fear. She looked like a different person. The look in her eyes made her look insane at that moment. After taking in the tears in your eyes she said, "Yeah, that's right you could only cry, do you know how pathetic it is to cry. It shows how weak you are."

Then she raised her hand and another hit landed on your back.

You woke up from your nightmare panting and trying to take deep breaths. There was a glass of water placed on the nightstand beside the bed. You took it and chugged the whole water placing the glass back at its place.

After your breathing slowed down almost coming back to its normal pace, you noticed the sweat that was formed on your forehead.

You thought that the nightmares had stopped four years ago but they started again. It was impossible to stop them now that they are coming back again. You knew you locked away these painful memories and nightmares in a cage, but because of being trapped in this place for soo long they have started to crawl out of the cage, once again showing you your inner demons, your past from which you can't run.

You had cleaned your entire room today in order to find a place to escape a hole or a trapdoor  but to your dismay there was nothing. Although you knew at the back of your mind that you won't find anything still you did in order to cause a distraction for yourself so that you won't have to think those dangerous thoughts that are coming back to your mind.  However, at night there was nothing to distract you, so you did the only thing that looked right, that is sleeping. But those memories infiltrated your sleep too causing nightmares.

Suddenly the feeling of helplessness took over you making your eyes water, and then the dam broke spilling tears from your eyes. Tears of helplessness that you can't escape this place, your thoughts and your past. You felt pathetic in this situation because all you could do was cry.

Your mother's words from the nightmare started echoing in your mind, telling you how worthless and pathetic you were because all you could do was cry. You wailed your heart out, the tears were blinding your vision. You didn't wanted to believe your mother, when she said that you were worthless.

You were soo occupied in wailing your heart out that you didn't notice someone opening the door and coming inside.