𝟔 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐒{J.H.SXREADER}

Chapter 9

You were too busy in crying that you didn't notice someone opening the door. The figure stood there taking in your appearance, when he noticed that you were crying he slowly made his way towards you. Through your watery eyes you noticed a pair of legs infront of you. You thought it to be Jacob, probably he's also here to tell you that how worthless and pathetic you were.

You saw him taking a seat on your bed in front of you but you didn't bother to look up at him, after all he was the one who trapped you in this place and made you remember all those hidden and locked demons in your head.

He just sat there for some time when you felt his arm placing itself on your back and the other one on the back of your head, pulling your head towards his shoulder and placing it there. His sudden actions caught you off guard. No one had ever comforted you. You never had a shoulder to cry upon and you always felt that you were enough to take care of yourself. However, his actions made your heart flutter and you hated yourself for that, you wanted to know if he was Jacob or J because as far as you know Jacob would never comfort you, it has to be J.

The hand which was on your back started to draw soothing circles, which helped you in calming down a little but couldn't control the self loathing thoughts that you were having, because of which the dam that you were trying to control broke again.

"Sh-sh (y/n)" he shushed you. "It's gonna be okay. You're gonna be okay." He said trying to comfort you. He was making it really hard for you to control yourself from letting out your emotions. He was making you feel wanted which you knew was a lie. But the way he was embracing you gave a warm feeling to your heart.

When you regained a little strength to speak, you tilted your head and met his eyes, J indeed.
You said the only thought that came to your mind, "Can you distract me from this?" That was all you wanted at this moment to ease your pain, a distraction.

Your request landed you on the sofa that was infront of a TV. This was the other room. It was your first time in this room, you only saw this room through the keyhole or when the door to your room opened.

Unlike your room this one was very untidy. There was a table in the corner on top of which were some science experimental equipments like funnel, tongs, beaker and many other things were kept. On the walls there was a big shelf where cosmetics were kept, you thought that maybe they belong to Mrs. Hosook. There were multiple dresses stocked on some racks near the shelves, some were for ladies while some were for gents. Just by looking at the clothes you could tell whom they belonged to. However there were some clothes which didn't match with the personalities of the ones you've met, those clothes were really sparkly and looked like they were stage outfits.

Then your gaze landed towards the door and the hope of escaping from here again lit up your mind, you wondered where that door leads to. Following your line of sight J came towards you and saw that you were looking at the door soo longingly.

"Don't even think about it." He said snapping you out of the scenarios you were planning to get to that door. It was as if he read your mind. "I don't know why they brought you here but I know for a fact that if you leave this place I'll be the one to get into trouble."

His statement got you thinking, he didn't know why you were here.
"J?" You called
"Hmm." He replied.
"You don't know why Jacob brought me here?" You asked trying to make your voice sound innocent.
"No they don't tell me anything." He answered while attaching the TV plug to the switch board.

"Now stop prying in these matters and enjoy the movie that I chose, honey." He replied cockily, while sitting beside you on the sofa. You rolled your eyes at the comment. You focused your gaze on the screen and tried to concentrate on that.

"So." He started while going through different movies trying to choose one. You waited for him to continue, when he didn't you asked, "so?"

"Um, you wanna talk about it?" He asked. You knew perfectly well what he was referring to but you didn't wanted to answer so you played dumb.
"Talk about what?" You asked.
"You know what," he said turning towards you but instead you focused your gaze on the TV screen.
"Nevermind, tell me when you feel comfortable." He said when he was sure you will not answer and turned his head towards the screen again going through the movies.

J selected a movie named Fifty Shades Of Grey, you haven't heard about that movie before.

"Have you seen it before?" He asked, a glint of mischievousness visible in his eyes.
"No." You replied honestly.
"You're gonna enjoy this then, hon." he replied a smirk making it's way on his lips. You just rolled your eyes at his cocky attitude, it was all you did when you were near him, it's like rolling your eyes on his comments have become a habit of yours.

The movie started and everything was going good until Christian Grey offered that contract to Anastasia Steele, after that most of the scenes focused on one thing, sex. You never hated the idea of sex, you knew it will happen with you at some point of life.
However, what you didn't knew was that you'll be watching it with a person who abducted you, and what clearly is not helping is the fact that he is clearly h.o.t.

Suddenly the room started to feel a lot warmer than it had been in this cold weather. You could feel your cheeks heating up whenever those scenes appeared on the screen. J on the other hand looked really relaxed. He would glance at your direction from time to time but other than that he never looked embarrassed. You were really taken aback by his behaviour, either he didn't feel embarrassed easily or he is really good at hiding it.

Halfway through the movie you felt your eyes becoming heavy the scenarios of escaping long gone from your mind and taken over by the thoughts of sleep. You could feel your head hanging from side to side when it landed on something muscular. J's shoulder. You immediately shot your eyes open and meet with his black ones. There was something different about his eyes you noticed, the usual cockiness was replaced by little sparks of loneliness. His eyes held softness towards you, it was like someone completely different from J. You thought that maybe some other personality has taken the light, like he always says. You blink your eyes and get up from your position to investigate further. However, to your dismay till the time you met his eyes again he had turned his head to the other side and when you focused on his eyes again the cockiness had returned. But he was not his relaxed self, rather he was panicking, he was constantly trying to have no eye contact with you.

After a few minutes he stopped the movie.
"I think you should go to bed. You'll be in trouble if the others find out that you left the room." He said gesturing towards your room. There was a frown on his handsome face, and his eyes were looking at different places except you. You were a little confused as to what caused him to behave like that but you thought it would be better to figure out these things in the place where you were locked.

You quietly left the room and went in yours. J was not following you there but he was ready to lock you in, so you immediately held his hand softly to stop him.
"Thank you for today." You said softly. There again you saw his eyes changing.
"Anytime." He replied with a soft smile that warmed your heart. His smile was like sunshine that makes its way on a dark rainy day and lightens up every one. This smile doesn't belong to any of the personalities soo far. Before you can say something else he closed the door.