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Twelve

Those past few days I was alone by myself I fucked with both niggas and I there was no way I could leave one hanging and go to the other . It would be even worse if I went to both I just couldn't. I sat in my room crying half the time because I had lost a friend and most of all I was the reason he died was because of me.

If I ain't take his shit then he would've had some shit to give to them and they wouldn't have killed him. All because of my fucking addiction . I can't even tell no one bout this shit imma have to keep it in. I grabbed one of the cream colored pills I took from keem and cried as I placed the pills in my mouth swallowing it dry.

At that moment I didn't take the drugs cause I wanted to feel nothing. I took it because I wanted to feel every guilt I deserve all the pain i had been hiding with the drugs I wanted it to all come back. That's the funny thing about it, although it takes away it can also give.

I can easily hide the pain and I can easily bring it back out. I heard a knock on my door and before I could open it Andre walked in my room. I was a little shocked to see him after Hakeem death.

When I seen him I immediately walked up to him despite still being a little woozy from the shit I took. I held on to Andre waist and hugged him as I pulled him to my bed he immediately broke down . He started crying in my chest and I held him harder as he cried more and more to the point I started crying I just could not take the guilt.

He looked up at me his face wet with tears lips red and bruised from biting on to it for so long, eyes red and watery from his tears . He cupped my face and placed his soft lips on mine. We started kissing and i climbed on top of him as he caressed my ass . We were sharing our grief through our kiss and I couldn't feel more comforted.

Eventually kissing turned into rubbing bodies and removing our shirts revealing our wounded souls. I got down to my knees and took him whole . I licked the tip of it and circled my tongue around it before I went back to bobbing my head up and down. After about 1-2 minutes I felt him twitch in my mouth " I'm bouta nut" he moaned out holding on to my hair forcing my head back down . I continued sucking as he shot his seed down my throat. He shook as I continued sucking, over stimulation was coming over him.

He tried to push me back but gave up and laid back down. After another minute I pulled off his limp dick. With a plop sound . I smiled as he picked me up and tossed me on the bed spreading my legs wide . He licked between my thighs all the way down to my pussy. He then started off by licking my clit slowly. After a few licks he started violently flicking his tongue at my clit and sucking on it once in a while . At some points he would jab his tongue in me earning a loud moan.

My legs became wobbly and they started shaking, I was having to much pleasure so I pushed his head back as a way to sort of relieve myself. " don't run baby we not even close to being done yet" . He continued licking in between my fold as I closed my legs shut trying not to squirt on his face. But once he stuck a finger in I was gone " oh fuck" I started crying out, it felt too good to be true " faster fuck please go faster" he listened to me as I plead and fastened his pace and I just couldn't take it. I squirted all over his face and he smiled and pulled back.

He rubbed his dick on my pussy and few times then rammed himself in me. I groaned out loud as he started slowly. Wanting him to speed up I locked my legs around him and he started moving faster. " yes oh fuck right there" I moaned as he pushed my legs back and spat at my pussy. I smirked watching my toes curl and my body start to shake. He started to moan and his strokes got sloppier I knew he was about to nut any minute .

I closed my eyes and waited for him to fill me up and when the warm sensation came in me I gasped. He pulled out and fell back on the bed. " round two?" He asked I just hummed and went to sleep I was too exhausted