soft sunshine || beeduo :)

14. The Aftermath.

Ranboo pov

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The three of us sat in silence for a while. I didn't want to break the silence though. Breaking silence was always so uncomfortable to do, but I thought that maybe they just needed time to process the things I just told them about my experience. I'm still trying to understand what I just experienced. I don't even understand what happened, or even why. The silence was killing me.

The air was still and so was the house. Silence filled the room. Silence reminded me of nothing good now. It reminded me of when I sat in silence and stared into a black void for what felt like hours, months, maybe years.

I turned my head to Tubbo. I watched his chest rise then fall, letting out a soft yet gentle sigh to fill the silence of the room for a moment. His eyes were filled with fear and anxiety. The silence of the room probably didn't help his anxiety that I could see in his eyes and my sudden black out has caused him fear for everything now. I could tell he was scared if he was going to lose me.

I wanted to break the silence of the room now, it was causing me anxiety now. I wanted to fill the room with some sort of noise. The silence made me feel alone. Alone. Such a small word for someone or something to feel.

I turned my head in Tommy's direction. An angry expression was pasted across his face. Angry at what I had to experience. Angry at someone specific. Angry at the world. The world that we lived in was such a terrible place at times, and unfortunately those were one of those times. We were going to make it though. We were going to go through thick and thin together. No matter what gets in our way, we'll make it out alive. No matter how hard it would get.

After a moment later, I watched Tommy stand to his feet from the ground after sitting there in a ball, waiting for his emotions to spill over. He brushed his shirt off and then sighed before turning to Tubbo and I.

" How about we all make dinner? We can't sit here the whole time in silence and let our emotions take over us as much as we want them too. We just have to keep moving. No matter what."

Finally, The silence was now gone and talking filled the room. I suddenly don't feel alone anymore. A faint smile spread across my face. Tommy was right. If we were going to let out emotions take over us then we can't move forward. Cooking was the perfect distraction for now, so then everyone could gather their thoughts. I nodded my head at the blonde looking down at us.

" You know what.. You're right Tommy. I'm in to make dinner. We need a distraction. Tubbo? How does that sound to you?"

I spoke in agreement with Tommy then turned my head to the brown haired boy. Tubbo directed his attention to me after a moment. I could see it on his face. He was terrified of what the feature could hold now. I watched him take a deep breath in before exhaling then nodding his head at me.

" I agree. What are we thinking about for dinner? Something simple? Something a little more difficult to make? "

He spoke in a gentle tone as he picked himself up from the ground with Michael in his arms. I lifted myself up from the floor shortly after Tubbo did, trying to balance myself after spending some much time on the kitchen floor in silence and sobs. Enough of that.. Dinner. What could we make for dinner? I don't think making something that will take three hours is the way to go, so something simple probably is the best route to go.