We Were Too Young L.S.

Alone

While Louis was dealing with his own troubles...Harry wasn't doing well at all. Yes, he had released an album, yes, he was gaining fame, yes, he had his friends supporting him, from the outside everything seemed well enough but on the inside, Harry felt....empty. He felt...lost.

"Hey Harry!" Mitch's voice echoed in Harry's flat as he entered it and found Harry in the kitchen.
"Hey.." Harry mumbled and gave Mitch a tight lipped smile from where he was standing near the kitchen counter waiting for his tea to boil.
"How are ya mate?" Mitch asked, he put a hand around Harry's shoulders, "Did ya eat breakfast yet?"
"Um...I'm fine I guess and yeah I had...had toast.." Harry said and wiggled out of Mitch's grasp, for some reason, for quite sometime now whenever someone touched Harry, he felt weird and claustrophobic, he never used to feel that way but well, here he was now. Harry turned off the stove and poured his tea in a cup and placed it infront of him.

"How are you really Harry?" Mitch asked.
"What do you mean? I am fine." Harry said avoiding eye contact with Mitch.
"Harry please don't lie to me. We have been friends for years, I know you...what is wrong?" Mitch asked, his eyes glazed with tears as he saw one of his best friends standing there with a 'hole in his heart'.
"I..." Harry sighed. "I just...just feel like...like everyone is...like miles away from me.."
Mitch furrowed his brows in confusion. "What do you mean, I am right here, Sarah  and I live next door and Gemma is coming to meet you today."

Harry sighed and looked down. "I just feel incomplete. I don't want...don't want to feel like this...I-I..." Harry took a deep breath and started again ,"I want to become numb..so that I never feel again." Harry looked and sounded so broken, so vulnerable. Mitch went up to him and hugged him tightly, Harry let the first tear fall. "It has been 2 years...I-I just can't move on."

"I will spend the rest of my life wondering why I wasn't enough.." Harry said and that sentence broke Mitch. 

"Harry Louis was a dick to-"
"Don't!...I mean don't say that...I must've done...you know something wrong...he is an angel." Harry said.
Mitch looked at him just feeling so much respect for Harry at that moment, eventhough Louis broke his heart, Harry still respected Louis and cared for him. "Harry you ARE enough. You are more than enough. Louis IS wrong, you didn't deserve it." Mitch said as he caressed Harry's cheek.

"I..you know I..saw a picture...of Freddie..he looks so much like Lou. Freddie was...he was supposed to be mine and Louis' son...not Brianna's. Louis and I always talked about kids. He said that if we have a son...we will call him Freddie and if a daughter...we would call her Darcy a-and now.." Harry couldn't even say anything anymore, he just felt so betrayed in a way. He knew that it wasn't right of him to feel jealous of Brianna but he just couldn't help it. Him and Louis had always dreamed of a big family and he just misses it so much, he just misses talking to Louis. He just misses the way him and Louis used to talk to each other all night about their dreams, they would tell each other stories that they had told each other before, they would talk about the education policies for their future kids but now...Harry was..alone.

"Mi...why was I not enough.. I did everything..why is everyone happier when I am not around...why can't I be someone's priority... Why can't I be Louis' priority. You know if he had kept dating Brianna and me at the same time..I would've been fine with it." Mitch was stunned at Harry's confession. "What do you mean Harry?" He asked.

"I mean..if he wanted to date Brianna and me at the time I'd have been happy. I just needed a little bit of his heart..He could've even married Brianna or had..had more kids with her and you know kept me as his side person..I would've been fine with it." Harry confessed as tears rolled down his cheeks. Mitch felt a pang in his heart, Harry was such a pure soul and Louis had hurt his so badly. Mitch hugged Harry again. "Harry never say that, YOU deserve to be someone's priority, Louis is stupid and don't you stop me from saying that, he is an IDIOT to have left you, you deserve the world Harry and you deserve someone better." Mitch said as he rubbed Harry's back comfortingly.

"I miss him...I-I just miss him so much.." Harry said between sobs,Mitch continued to rub his back, "shh, shh Haz it would be alright.." Mitch kept saying reassuring words in Harry's ear as the curly haired lad kept crying. "You need to first rest and then go out and get some fresh air, you haven't left your house in 2 weeks, plus you have interviews...let's get ready yeah?" Harry nodded and went to the bedroom. He changed into some decent clothing for interviews and wiped the tears off his face.

He looked at himself in the mirror, tears were clouding his vision and he was trying to hold back. "Don't cry...Don't cry...Don't cry..Don't cry.." he kept repeating to himself as he washed his face and applied moisturizer. Harry sighed to himself and went out of the room and then shortly after left his house for the day. .

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A/N :> small chapter but well, I cried writing this because I know that Harry is the type of person who would really lose everything for the person that he loves.

Bye :) xx