My Perfect Nightmare 》

chapter 20

"What do you think you were doing? Acting strong?" Knot asked, his eyes held pure anger

"I'm sorry p, I didn't know it would turn into something se.." Arthit was cut by knot

"And that is why we have doctors! We had one with us too but what you decided to do? To not bother him for nothing!" Knot replied

Arthit let out a tired sigh, he knew knot was right, he shouldn't he neglecting his health as if it's nothing, but right now, all his mind did was flashed the tear that rolled down Kongpob's cheek

He was indeed worried about the other, for the very first time Kongpob's tear made Arthit's heart bloom in happiness, why? Because that tear was the proof of how worried the other was for him

"Are you even listening to me?" Knot asked helplessly

Arthit blinking a multiple times, getting out of his thoughts he flashed a sheepish grin at knot who sighed disbelievingly

"Anyways, now that you are fine, let me inform you, Mr Charles is coming over today, to apologize for what happened at the club" knot informed

Arthit's expression darkened in a minute, as he now sat up straight with a rather serious stare

"Apologize? He was the one firing the most bullets" arthit replied

"I am aware of it arthit, but opposing him right now is not a good idea, I think we should just let him do all the drama he wants right now" knot suggested

"And what if he does something similar again?" Arthit asked raising an eyebrow

"We will be prepared this time, your safety is my only priority, so don't be worried about that" knot replied

Arthit's face softened a little at the comment, he always adored the concern knot held for him, he loved the elder one quite the same, he was the only one who stood with him when no one else did

Arthit was fifteen when his father died in a betrayal by the mafia party, his mother was left heartbroken, and did nothing other than to cry, mumbling her husband's name

All the relatives suggested on making nat, Arthit's cousin brother, the next Mafia boss, since arthit was not at a proper age, but arthit didn't want that

He wanted the throne for himself, to maybe prove to his mother that life can still be better, that he will take the revenge for his father, but no one else wanted any of it

Knot, an orphan, who was just another child worker in arthit's house, always became his listener and personal advisor

Arthit enjoyed the time he spent with the other, knot was the only one who could make him smile even on his worst days, and was Arthit's only ray of hope

When arthit turned eighteen, he fought with all his relatives and got the throne back and what was the first thing he did with his power? Made knot his right hand, the most powerful after him in his own kingdom

The two, since then are inseparable and knot has grown up to have high elder brother instincts in him for the other, while arthit just behaved like a kindergarten kid in front of the other
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Kongpob was in the balcony, admiring the weather, it was a pleasant evening, a mug of warm water in his hands since his throat felt itchy as he sipped it in uniform intervals 

"The truth is the very same, we loved each other Kong, you loved me"

"At least you accepted that you loved me.."

"Do you think it's easy for me to see you back, in front of me, but not in the form of my love, I can't hug you, I can't kiss you, god you don't even know me"

"You wouldn't know how much I have cared about you"

"Will you support me?"

"You know how often I get nightmares, you always gave me a bear hug whenever it hap..."

Arthit, Arthit's words, Arthit's face, Arthit's tears, arthit was the only thought wandering in Kongpob's mind

His words rung in his ear as if an old favourite melody, each word pierced through his heart like a needle, making it hurt even more that it already did

He shut his eyes close, letting the wind kiss his face and blow his hair away, when he felt another presence beside him

"You don't have to walk away, I don't feel good and nor do you, let's be each other's companions in silence okay?" Arthit asked, his eyes never leaving the sky

Kongpob was too stunned to reply, arthit had appeared out of nowhere, looking like an angel staring at the sky which seemed less beautiful than him

It took kongpob a while to keep his eyes off arthit, as he turned to face the sky as well, letting out a tired sigh

"Isn't it all too complicated?" Kongpob mumbled

"It is, very" arthit replied

"You know me and thus love me unconditionally, I don't know you, but still can't bring myself to hate you, even though I very well know you killed my brother" kongpob said, now staring at arthit

"In rare cases, the memories are forgotten but not the feelings, you would constantly love me without knowing the cause" arthit replied softly

"It is, sometimes, in rare cases, the memories are forgotten but not the feelings, you would constantly feel sad without knowing the cause"

Kongpob blinked a few times, as if registering the sentence he just heard when arthit turned to face him as well

"You seem like that rare case, and I will be glad if you also know the cause of loving me and not just love me due to the lingering memories" arthit said

Kongpob stared right in his eyes, his held a storm of emotions while he tried his best but couldn't ignore what he saw in arthit's, hope

I purple you 💜