Love You Untill I Couldn't

Chapter 3

The moment Roan openned the door to his dorm he immediately regretted it. His head was heavy with a physical ache but even worse… an ache of all the memories from last night. They just came flooding back, and the stream wouldn’t stop rushing either. The more he thought, the more the memory of kissing David Payne seemed to sting. Roan checked his watch it was very early indeed. It was just past Six in the morning. Still, he knew he wouldn’t be getting any more sleep even if he was hungover. He was feeling hungry , but the dorm cafeteria wouldn’t be serving breakfast for a while yet. Sighing, he flopped down in his bed.

He didn’t know what to make of the situation whatsoever. He had fucked David. And David had let him. Not just that, but… the Sex was wonderful. It had made him feel so elated, so sated. And even though he was guilty, even though it felt wrong and like he should be ashamed - it felt like it was meant to be. It had felt… like he’d been wanting it all along. He felt sick at the thought.

There was no way he could like David. They were like rivals, their groups were different. There were always snide remarks and glares in the hallways. It was not like David had said anything to him. But he always stood there. With the students that matched his lifestyle. Roan had always been jealous of them. They had Posh cars. They wore expensive clothes. It was like they were given everything that Roan ever wanted. And David behaved like the quiet guy who scrutinized everything. It always pissed him off.

With a heavy sigh, Roan buried his head into the pillow. His stomach rumbled. He tried to distract himself, to think of something.He thought hard, he really did, but he honestly he couldn't think of anything else. Naturally, his mind started to drift. Back to last night.

Back to fucking David. All thoughts of Breakup and Gina left him. All he could think of was David. Roan wanted it. He wanted David.

Much later on, when we went up to the cafeteria for breakfast. He met Sean and Derrick waiting for him at the table.

“The omelette.” Sean said. “Its nice right.”

“Yeah, and the sausage is very nicely cooked” Derrick said smiling awkwardly “It’s never been this better.”

“Guys its fine. I am okay. No need to cheer me up saying impossible things.” Roan pointed out, stifling a yawn. He was starting to get tired, putting him in the worst mood imaginable. He just wanted to go straight to bed.

“But Roan we are here for you.” Sean replied, clearing his throat. Roan nodded grateful that they were concerned.

The three of them finished and walked towards their Dorm. Sean and Derrick looked ready for class. Roan sighed.

“Guys I will join you in the evening. I will attend the evening class.” Roan said walking away. He still needed his sleep.

Much later Roan walked towards the library. He need to look at the books for his lecture.

The moment he got in, he immediately wanted to punch himself. Not that he needed the feeling, he felt as if his gut was being twisted. This was a feeling he had started to know and hate. As now David stood in front of him. He hadn’t noticed Roan come in. For a moment, the Roan stared at him as he looked at the books in the shelves. He hadn’t actually looked the face before, but now the pale white face covered in the black bangs made his heart skip. He hated himself for it.

Backing away slowly, he planned on trying to sneak out of the library and going back to his dorm, he could return later.

“Leaving so soon?” David asked, not looking away from his the book in his hand