Roan wasn't satisfied. He needed more. He really thought that he would be able to let go but he was wrong.
Being with David was fun. Not that he would say it out loud but he enjoyed teasing the other guy. And Sex was amazing as always. It was slowly turning into a habit. And to his horror he actually wanted to stop being an asshole to David. There were times where he just wanted to cuddle David after Sex. Sometimes he would visit a shop or a restaurant and think about the other guy if he would have liked it too.
It was clearly messing up his brain. But Roan wasn't Gay. He had a Girlfriend. He had planned on being married after college and have his own children. He wanted to have a normal family. He wasn't rich like David to begin with. He still has to pay the loan his parents took for him and his sister's education. And he doubts he parents will be able to accept a gay son. What was he thinking ? It was like he was actually considering his sexual preference.
Roan wanted to bash his head somewhere to clear his muddled thoughts.
Everyday he would wake up and wish that he would break it off with David. But when they meet Roan forgets about it. As if he was unconsciously avoiding it.
And there were also times when Roan felt like killing every person who seemed like a potential partner for Roan. Ken Landry and even Sean who was his bestfriend. He felt uneasy whenever David laughed with someone else other than him. It was not like David laughs with him to begin with. And that made him jealous. He wanted to lock him up somewhere and keep only for himself.
Bianca or Alice weren't of any help either. He wasn't enjoying fucking them. He didn't wanted to fuck to them. And that thought horrified him. He can't be gay. He wasn't Gay
Roan looked at his watch. There was still time before the alarm rings. He woke up early and couldn't help but brood. What was he doing actually. It needed to stop. He needed to avoid David. It's not like he will die without him.
Roan checked his phone this time. There were messeges from his friends, Bianca and David.
Roan scowled. And suddenly he was angry. Everything was David's fault. He made Roan this way. That even made him question his own sexuality. David disgusted him.
Roan ignored David's messege and called Bianca. He asked her out on a date saying that he actually took a liking on her. He knew that this was a shitty thing to do. To both David and Bianca. But he didn't care. He just wanted to be normal.
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Love You Untill I Couldn't
Romansa"OF ALL THE PAINFULL WAYS TO DIE THE WORST IS FALLING IN LOVE. " "Do you hate me so much Roan?" "If only I didn't love you I would still be alive, Roan.." "You do not regret now Do you ?" "Roan..." "You can't because you killed me? Roan!" Roan stag...
