Scars fade, don't they?

Date

It's Friday, Louis took the day off from work. After starving for nearly two days he can't bare to work, he just can't.
His whole body is screaming, so much. He's been crying since yesterday about the pain, but he needs to be skinny infront of Harry. He would never accept to look fat infront of him. Never.

Louis forces himself to eat something at least or he would pass out, but he feels disgusting afterwards. He regrets it, but he has to.
A small bowl with porridge, he used to love porridge before. Now he hates it.
Lisa is sitting on the counter observing him, she probably wonders when she is getting food.

Louis pours some wet food into her bowl and she starts to eat, it smells disgusting. Almost makes him gag, but as least she likes it. Himself finishes his small bowl and goes back to bed, he has no energy being awake. All he does on his free time is to sleep, that's why he's scared about falling in love with Harry. How can he hide all of this? Louis hopes Harry doesn't like him, that he just wants to be friends. So this could be over, so he can continue hating himself to the day he dies.

Louis falls asleep fast, he dreams about being home. Home in Doncaster, with his mom and siblings. The sun is shining and they all are out playing football, the birds are singing. It must be spring, he sees his siblings being very young. Is he dreaming a memory?
Louis is good at controlling his dreams, he usually controls them every night. But sometimes he end up with sleep paralysis, he hates those. They scare him, one time they got so bad that he was scared of sleeping. He stayed up a couple of days and passed out on the kitchen floor, Niall found him after he didn't attend to work and didn't call in. Which Niall found usual so he couldn't help but to go to his apartment. He took him to ER but sent him home after thirty minutes.

Louis wake up with a loud ringing noice, it's his alarm he set up for himself. It's 14:30, he is supposed to he at Harrys 18:00. So he now has time to get ready.
He steps out of bed and heads to the bathroom, turns on the shower. The water takes awhile to get hot, he strips down and stares at the cold tiles. His arms goes around his body, he can feel himself shaking. The room gets so cold. Thats when he knows the water is hot.

The shower doesn't sting this time, it's kind of reliving. Even thought he likes when it stings.
Both of his shampoo and conditioner is soon empty, he remembers that old tumblr quote and laughs. Maybe this is a sign? He shakes head and scrubs his body, the mango sent is covering the whole bathroom. It's magical. Louis is gentle when it comes to his arms and legs, he doesn't wanna start bleeding again. Not today.
The steam makes him dizzy, he can only shower for a couple minutes before he is close to passing out. He learnt that once before.

As he steps out he wraps his warm towel around his body, he sits down on the toilet seat. Some water drops fall on Louis shoulder making him shiver, it's really cold. He can see his feets getting blueish, and so his fingertips.
He covers his whole body in bodylotion and puts on his favourite sweater, his grandma made it for him a long time ago but it still fits. A par of blue chinos that matches together with his sweater, he fixes his hair and puts on a fragrance that he likes. No idea why he's actually dressing up. He has no plans of getting into a relationship with Harry at all.

Like usual, he has to wait. He is ready one hour before he needs to be there, Louis is always too early then late.
Lisa jumps up in his lap and starts purring, her warmth is spreading into Louis tights. It's amazing, he doesn't wanna leave her. It's always like this, usually in the mornings when he needs to get up but Lisa is so comfortable in his lap.

He finally realised he actually need to leave now, he's slow. It's snowing alot outside so it will take a while to get to his place, Louis will be exhausted when he reached Harrys place. Hm wonder if he lives in a house or apartment? He's young so probably apartment.