PASTEL PINK || J.JK ✔

7| Hurt me good

11 pm

Triggering content (Mentions of drug and it's effects.)

"If i lose my job, i'm choking you to death." I try my best to see in proper senses, but i cannot quite tell if my sights are blurry, or this place is really this bad.

Lewis comes close to me, and sits down by my side, his car parked near since i told him to not drive, and this idiot still came to the club driving. "Do it, i don't care, life's shitty anyways." He bends down to spread his legs, and light his second cigarette, this time i crave for one too.

"Oh shit," the lighter almost slips out his hand, and i catch it, lighting my cigarette with it too. I don't care, at this point, i am basically gonna agree with him.

"Can i ask you something?" He takes me back to reality, and i look sideways at him, both of us enjoying how the low wind hits our hot heads, and cools down our minds, his hair flowing to the direction of the wind, and his blue eyes shining. I hum, taking a deep inhale of this nicotine.

"Do you really feel something towards him?" I shake my head, "i don't like mister jeon, it's just that i feel like he'd kind, and too generous."

He pauses for a few seconds, but stares at me without any words. Then a small chuckle leaves him sorely, and he takes the stick out his lips to exhale out the smoke, making designs with it since he's a pro in this. "How'd you know i was referring to mister jeon if he's not the one in your mind?"

Shoot, this is so logically dumb for me to argue further. I simply give in. "Levi, it's not what you're thinking...." i defend my thoughts for no reason, but he puts his arm around my waist, and slides me closer to him, so i hug his body to have some warmth come in mine.

His hand rubs my back, and i close my eyes, feeling some tear forming unintentionally in the brim of my eyes. "I don't know if you'll believe or not, but hey, trust me..." He makes me look into his eyes. "I see that look in your eyes every time he looks at you, or you do it, and your pupils feel like....like they're gonna explode from the darkness, the...umm maybe, depth of your love for him is too high."

He laughs, but i frown, sensing something unexplainable in his eyes.

I don't say anything, "so you always look at me uh?" I grin, teasing him because i want to know the truth tonight. I want him to say everything he's been wanting to.

His eyes shift at mine, and he smiles, looking down. "I don't mean that. It's...it's just interesting to check how much you're into...him." His smile fading a bit, he ends his sentence with the lowest voice i've heard from him, and this breaks me.

"Hey..." he sees that i am not smiling, and his hands cup my cheek, his eyes letting go of some really painful tears which i caused perhaps, without intending to.

This is a moment where i feel helpless, i don't know what to do.

"I'm really happy." His soft voice cracks, and i smile, gazing at him with a blurry eyesight, my hand goes to his jawline, and i caress his burning skin as softly as i can. "As foolish as i can be, i know i cannot ruin my baby girl's heart just because i am selfish. I...hate myself for this..." He whispers, his fingertips pressing onto my cheek, and i feel how badly his body is shaking. I want to wake up from this nightmare, it's really painful, and my throat is hurting, my eyes sting.