love and accident -- Jude Bellingham

About this girl that i met

I have met different types of girls in my career and a lot of fans but there is something about this girl, though she has not many friends but she knows how to protect herself from everyone which in this world its very hard to stay away from fake people, people might think as a famous footballer I don't really have a much to say in the ordinary life but i can even the football career is difficult some might say its just about kicking a ball around but from my perspective its not just about that we suffer so much from different things for example mental toughness, handling the moment when we are losing a lot of stress consumes us, So about this girl Neema Grayson she might sound like a ordinary girl but if you get to know her there is a lot of things that are interesting about her, after we got inside of the house mom started to tell my stories as a kid i sometimes wonder is every parent like this which for a fact i know my mom is a hyper woman she is very joyful in everything, so as we were eating my mother made a joke about me being afraid to the dark even at the age of 10 which was really bad to be honest it made me laugh to the fact that she has such good memory, after a while Neema had to go back to her house which my mother made a sad face cause she gets lonely sometimes she only has Dad but he's always at work so she's lonely ,after dropping off Neema i got back home quickly and started to pack cause i have training the next day i also didn't forget to text her that she wont be seeing me in person for the next few weeks because i have to fly to Germany for my match,

~~~~~~~~~Neema~~~~~~~~~~~~~
For the past few days, I have been feeling very lonely although I have gotten used to it without Judy has felt really lonely, I may not have many friends, but this time it feels different it feels like I have lost something very valuable which I know may sound very weird because I have only met him but there is something about him that makes me want to be closer to home but what if  I am hurt again what if I do something really bad again,
I was in my own little world when my phone rang I looked at it and it read Jude, I don't know why I hesitated to pick up the call but in the end I picked it up:
J: hey,
N: hi
J: how have you been
N: good and u
J: I have been really well just missing hanging around with you that's all
He has missed me, but am I supposed to be happy relieved that he said that or never mind
J: you still there ?
N:yeah, sorry I just spaced out that's all,what were you saying
J: I was saying that after two days I'll be back in Birmingham to see my brother playing and to see you too of course
N: oh that's very nice of you Jude,
J: are you sure you are alright you sound a bit down
Oh he actually noticed, not many people noice even my own mother, she didn't. She doesn't even notice my emotions. Well what can I do about that?
N: yeah I'm fine, just I don't know what to say but it's okay I'm fine
J: you sure, because like you can talk to me any time you want
Again, he's done it again I kind of feel like he's trying to get something out of me or is he trying to be concerned friend?
N: dude, I know I can talk to you any time I need you, just like I have nothing to say to you and stuff like that it's alright
J: alright, see you in two days
N: okay, bye
J: bye
And then he hung up , I sat down my room, wondering is he really concerned about me or is he trying to just be nice cause I don't wanna end up like the last time it happened but again even if he's trying to be nice why does he have to fake it ? For what reason does he have to fake it for?

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AUTHOR NOTE
A HUGE APOLOGY
MY EXAMS WERE IN THE WAY OF EVERYTHING THE STRESS I JUST COULD NOT AND LIKE I KNOW I PROMISED BUT THIS TIME IS THE ONLY TIME I WILL BREAK A PROMISE
PLEASE COMMENT IF YOU HAVE MORE IDEAS I BEG 😭