Bleeding-Delilah (sequel to cutting the feelings away when you can't)

Chapter 12: We need the music, the music needs us

Delilah's p.o.v
We went back inside and went to record again, we got done with all of the panic! At the disco! Songs, now we just have to go to the meeting. we walk into the room with glass walls, looking at the few. we sat down and my mother sits beside me cause she's my manger and my friends all on the other side. three men came out and sat in the other side of us.
"So Delilah's career is taking off into a good direction I would like to start a few music videos for most of the songs, but not recreating any of the music videos from them." One of the men said.
"Okay, that sounds good. what else?" My mother said.
"We need to make an album, for the songs, we also need to go a tour soon." he said, my phone rings an it was Jason.
"Sorry, I have to take this." I said walking out answering it.
"Hey." I said.
"Hey, is it a bad time?" He asked.
"Well I had to walk out of the meeting." I said looking back at the door.
"Oh then I'll just tell you when you get here." he said hanging up. I walk back in and take a seat. They didn't tale about much just where were going and what songs we need to get done. after we left I went to the ranch. I parked my car and go up to the front building and nock on the door. A man with little hair opened the door.
"Yeah." he said.
"Is Jason here?" I asked, he waits a minute and gives me a look of disgust. Jason comes running on to the porch.
"Hi, Delilah!" Jason said trying to grab my hand and pull me away.
"Let go of that Satanist's had." he said. I look at him with a anger. I've been called that before, but it's one of my triggers now.
"Excuse me?" I said, " what did you just call me?" I stopped in my foot steps.
"Santanist." he said pulling out his shotgun.
"Is that gun suppost to scare me?" I said, "shoot me I dare you." he cocked his gun.
"Dad stop! Were going to the back." Jason said holding my hand and standing in front of me. We walked away and into the house an I sat down and put my face in my hands trying not to yell. Jason came over to me and sat next to me and rubbed my back and pulled me in for a hug.
"He just doesn't like your music. he thinks it's the devils music," Jason said, "it's not, and I wanted to talk to you about music."
I look up at him and leaned back.
"What about it?" I asked with a smilie that said "I'm okay I don't promise"
"The words and what the songs mean." he said. we went upstairs and I grabbed his laptop and sat on the bed. he sat behind me looking over my shoulder. I search the ghost of you lyrics and play it. I sing to the parts.
"See it's about going somewhere and never seeing you after cause," I said, with a pause hoping that he got it, " um.... it's like going to war and you see yourself die, your never coming home, never come home." I said singing the last part as the song played it. He smiled then looked at the ground worried.
"What's wrong, was it the war reference?" I asked rubbing his back.
"No, I get it now. I just have to go back." he said in a soft low voice. go back. where? I feel like I've known this guy my whole life.
"To war?" I asked.
"Yeah, in a month." he said, well at least it have a month.
"Okay, well I'm going on tour in a month." I said looking down at the ground.
"That's good." he said with a little smilie. I look at him and he looks back at me and I go in for a hug. He hugs tightly, I do to. he pulls away and I look into his bright ocean blue eyes with his freckles and soft hazel hair. I go in, I push my lips onto his, I can feel him press his onto mine he cups my face with both of his hands and I put my hands threw his hazel hair. he lays me on the bed and hovers over my body. he pulls away a tiny bit.
"I still love you like I did yesterday." I said smiling with my eyes closed, I open them and see his beautiful smilie. he goes back into the kiss and rolls over so I'm on top of him. I flip my hair up and put all of it in one side of my shoulder and go back into the kiss. he licked my bottom lip and then puts his tongue in my mouth. processing this for a few my minutes he takes his shirt off....... YAY! I cup his face with both of my hands and we sit up with me still sitting in his lap he grasps on to my hips. I take off my shirt leaving me with my tang top and jeans and him with no shirt and no boots. He pulls away and puts his fingers threw my hair.
"Your so beautiful," he said looking at my features, "I love you."
"I-" I was about to say before he kissed me then moves down to my neck. strangely I think of the song Nanananana, so I'm going, "na... na na na.... NA! Nanana." during some of this.
And then he looked at me pulling away giggling and smirking.
"gimmy more, gimmy more!" I sing then again making out. I pull away.
"We should probably not go any further." I said as he kisses my neck.
"Okay, I'll just be here." he said still kiss my neck, as I giggle.
"I love your giggle," he said as I stand up and walk to my phone, I check the time and it was 9:31. dang! We've been doing that for a while!
"I have to go, it's nine." I said putting my shirt back on.
"I'll walk you to your car." he said putting on a white tang top and his boots. he walks me to my car and kisses me. I get in and drive to my moms house before I go home, I nock on her door and she opened it.
"Hi, Delilah. is something wrong?" She asked.
"No I just need you to put the ghost of you in the songs were gonna sing on tour." I said.
"Okay." she said smiling and looking at me with that one look that's like why didn't you just text me?
"My phone died and I was just over here so." I said.
"Okay." she said closing the door, I went home and saw my dads sitting on the couch waiting for me to get home.
"What were you doing at a bull ring?" Dad asked.
"Having lunch and having fun." I said sitting down across from them.
"Okay, where were you after the meeting?" Patrick asked. making out with a guy.
"Talking to Jason about music and helping him." I said.
"Do you like him." daddy asked, I blush.
"A little." I said shrugging.
"Okay, go into you room were gonna do adult things." dad said getting up and going to the frige. I walk into Ash and Max's room and looked for Ash. Max was just in there laying in bed watching tv.
"Where's Ash?" I asked.
"I think she's in Ronni's room." he said.
"Okay, thanks Sweden." I said walking out.
"Thanks, America." he yelled. I nock and open Ronni's room and Ash opened it.
"Hey are you okay?" I asked.
"I'm not okay I promise." she said smiling.
"Okay, where are you gonna sleep?" I asked.
"I don't know. your room?" She said walking out down the hall to her room.
"Okay." I said following her she went in to the room and got some clothes and make up and went to my room. we got into my bed.
"I love you, sister." ash said.
"I love you too ashpie." I said hugging her then rolling over and going to sleep. I barely get any sleep. Dad walls in and goes to Ash, and takes her out of the room, I lay there just observing. I want to get up but I'm so sleepy I go into a deep slumber.