Dear dad.

i just gotta let it out.

i wanna scream as loud as i can about how much i miss you. but i feel it'd be the wrong time. i never know a good time to show how deeply hurt ive been for years. a part of me that no one would be able to fix. so much is going wrong. it feels like the family is at war. i wonder what you'd do? how would you handle what is happening? im stuck...in my head, with the family, even with my own life choices. i love what i have, and id never want to change it i mean somethings could stand to change but im grateful i have what i have. but i do gotta ask, is it bad to be mad at the boys because of where they haven't shared any of your things with us girls or even mom. It really bugs me that i don't even have a fucking shirt of yours!!!! all i got was tools and mom had to sneaked them to me, i have to hide them. its sad how the boys are now. if you was here i feel they would have been better. mom did a good job with us girls though. sister 1 has a house and a child he is a very happy boy. sister 2 has a amazing boy as well, and she has a job. Me i went to school like you would have want even when it got hard, i have a loving boyfriend of almost six years. i have my own chickens and i think you'd be proud at how ive raised them, also im a cat mom. i have four cats and one dog and five chickens. i know how to care for children no matter the age at this point. Also i know how to take animas to the vet and how to care for them. i'm not the BEST when it comes to driving. I never got my learners or drivers license, but i dont drive cars. i can drive a side by side for days! god i wish you was here so i could tell you everything, so i could ask you everything. i miss you dad, i love you.

                                                                                                                                                                        Love, R12S