Why do I try?

The Cookout

TRIGGER WARNING: LIKE LAST CHAPTER & Mature content(Not major smut but minor) 

We all finished our food and I ran upstairs because I can't believe that RJ is coming to the cookout that I am going to. I never wanted to see him again or face him, it is already bad enough that my favorite cousin is dating him. 

"Hey Y/n, you ran up so fast," Jungkook says peering through the door of our room 

"I am sorry," I say putting my head down 

"It's fine, what's wrong?" he asks and I got mad because was he not just listening to what my aunt just said 

"Oh, I don't maybe because the GUY who abused me, sexually assaulted me, and made me suicidal, is going to the cookout. So I don't know Jungkook WHY would I run upstairs so quickly because I guess YOU weren't listening to ANYTHING!" I yelled while tears were falling and I was sobbing, then Jungkook hugged me. I started realizing why did I yell at Jungkook he was just trying to help me. 

"I am sorry, for yelling at you, "I say still crying 

"It's okay, I should've known you were not okay," he said caressing my hair, then I realized that I haven't seen Alishia all day.

"Hey Kook, can you get Ali? I want to sleep with her today" I asked looking at him 

"Yes I can, but go get changed into your pj's," he said kissing my forehead and then leaving and I listen to him and change. I start to think he had been kissing me a lot lately, which I don't mind but does he like me? I got snapped out of my thoughts when the door opens. 

"Hey Isha?" my cousin Chantel walks in 

"What do you want Chanty?" I said in a cold tone 

"Can we talk?" She says to me 

"Sure, make it quick, I am tired," I say having her sit on the bed 

"Listen Isha, he has changed I know you won't believe me," she says to me 

"Oh, why wouldn't I believe you," I say sarcastically 

"I know, it wasn't supposed to happen but he just put himself on me, and in the end, I fell for him. I fought my feelings for 1 year and a half because I didn't want to betray you but I couldn't do it anymore. You can hate him all you want but don't hate me please Isha you are my life and I will break up with him if I have to. " she says and I feel bad, I have so much hatred for him that I can't see that she loves him

"Okay, but if I get any signs that he is playing you these 2 weeks I am here, then I am making you break up with him," I say 

"Okay deal, Thank you Isha," she says hugging me 

"Now scram, my man is coming," I say 

"Okay girlie," she says winking at me, and runs out and I laugh 

"Seems like my girl feels better," Jungkook says smiling with Alishia 

"Oh shut it, give me Ali," I say. He gives me Ali and I play with her 

"Oh, how is my baby?" I say to Ali and she coos 

"Oh, Appa is mean to you?" I asked and she cooed again and then I hit Jungkook 

"Ow! What was that for?" he asks rubbing his arm 

"Ali says you were being mean to her," I say to him 

"Ali, why did you lie, but Y/n let's go to bed because we need energy for tomorrow," he says getting under the covers and so I got under the covers and put Alishia in the middle. I was thinking he used to call me babe or honey now he just calls me Y/n. I liked when he called me the pet names but let me not ponder too much.