Just Us

Part 15

I still haven't spoken to Ellie, I'm deliberately avoiding her, for no particular reason. I mean, it's not like we're dating or anything? I don't have an obligation to be by her side at every moment of every day. I've heard her knock at my door a few times but I've completely ignored it. I've been held up in my room as I haven't needed to go on route for the past few days, the only reason I leave is to get food for dinner, and that's it. 

It was nice having Charlie over a few nights ago, we spoke and he told me about a girl he's seeing at Jackson, which is really cute. It felt good that we finally got to speak about everything that's going on recently, we all get caught up in shit going on, and we don't get time to pause and actually acknowledge it. He was very eager to find out what was happening between Kayley, Ellie and me, and honestly, I could not even tell him anything if I tried, cause' I don't even know.  

There's this type of, uncertainty with Kayley, there's a vibe with her that makes me uneasy and I don't know why I like it. She's got rough lips and I've been thinking about her a lot recently. She's chill and cocky and kind of a bitch, which is exactly my type. 

But then Ellie, she's sexual and pleasing. She knows exactly how to comfort me when I'm sad and she trusts me with her life and I'd do the same. Part of me would like to make it official with her but I don't want to be held down. Her body is beautiful and we've just got this spiritual connection. 

I don't know what to do. I've never had two girls be head over heels for me, let alone one. How do I let one of them down without losing them as a friend? Unless they do it for me...

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There's a very slight knock on my door, I ignore it like always, hoping it's Ellie which makes it more reasonable to ignore it. I shut my eyes again as there are a few moments of silence, hoping to drift back into sleep. My eyes are ripped open when the sound of another aggressive knock echos throughout my room, I can't ignore it now. I step out of my bed, placing my hand over my hair to push it down, hoping it doesn't look like a bird's mess. I head to the door and unlock it before opening it. 

"I have something urgent to tell you," the person on the other side of the door speaks.

I glance down then back up at their face, stepping to the side to allow them into my house. "What's going on?" I ask. 

"I saw Ellie and Dina making out," Kayley responds, and there's a sudden pit in my stomach, a pain I can't describe, it's similar to a knife being stabbed into my heart and ripped back out without a care of the mess or pain it causes. 

"What?" I ask, disbelief clearly evident in my voice. I feel my eyes start to sting. Snap it together, why are you crying over a girl you are avoiding? this is your own fault.

Kayley walks closer and places a hand on my shoulder, "I understand how you're feeling, I'm not going to tell you the details because it's clear you can't take it, let's just sit down and talk, hopefully, it can calm you down,".  I nod and walk back towards the bed and sit down before leaning back to lay on the warm surface.

Kayley pulls me closer to her as she copies my laying position and I'm now resting on her chest while her hand is stroking my messy hair. "I know you and Ellie are close-" she speaks but I cut her off.

"Were. She broke up with Dina for me, and now she's leaving me for her." I respond. 

Kayley continues her motion, surprisingly the feeling is extremely comforting. "You guys were together?" She asks.

I'm caught off guard. "No, not officially, but very close." I turn my head to look up at Kayley, her head leaning against my pillow and she smiles softly at my glance.