For The Love Of Clair

Part 8-Enzo

That night Robyn went out I decided to go over to Clair's place to talk to her about setting boundaries. I was married and I had to let her know that I can't do this anymore. I can't mess around with her. I can't cheat on robyn. I am better than this.
I told my good friend, Jake, that I'll be coming over tonight and that he should go grab some beers and call up the rest of our group of boys. Jake and I have known each other since the 5th grade. He was the best man at my wedding and he will be the first man to know about my situation with Clair. I know he wouldn't tell Robyn about it because... Bros before hoes, right?. He lives by that saying, which probably has something to do with the fact he is 27 and single. After Jake and I became good friends we slowly started adding to our group until there were 15 of us, guys and girls. Unfortunately some of the group drifted away after graduation and now there are just 8 of us guys who get together once in a while because we can't get away from our wives, or kids. All except Jake.
I decided to go over to Clair's place first. I had just left this morning when she was having her coffee. I wondered if she would still be having her coffee. If she is one of those girls who drink coffee like it's water. That would explain her amount of energy last night. Once I got to the front of her building I used my amazing visual memory to find my way back at her door. I knocked and waited impatiently for her to respond. I didn't know what I was going to say, I just knew I needed to break this off. Whatever this was, it needed to end.
Clair opened the door wearing yoga pants and a long baggy T-shirt. Her hair was tied up in a messy bun and she had put on some makeup. Was she heading out? Why didn't  think she would be heading out? She smiled at me.
"Oh hey. I wasn't expecting you to come back so soon" she smirked and opened the door more, letting me through. I came in.
"Clair, there is something I need to talk to you about" I said. She closed the door behind me and made her way to the living room.
"Okaaaay. This sounds serious" she sat on the couch and looked at me in confusion. I sat next to her. And looked at her.
"So, I've been thinking, '' I started, but I didn't exactly know where to go from here. How did I know she would want to continue whatever this was. What if it was just meaningless sex to her and I'd be making it weird if I was making it seem like it was more then that? Am I trying to break up with someone I haven't dated?
"You've been thinking.." I should tell she was growing impatient.
"Clair, I don't think I can do this" I blurted. I regretted the words immediately after they slipped off my tongue. I don't want her to feel bad or regret her decisions. I don't want her to feel like the other woman.
"Do what?" she tilted her head at me. God why does she have to be so fucking sexy?
"Last night. Clair I-" I'm what? Married? I can't tell her that. "I'm your coworker, It's completely inappropriate for us to be doing anything non-business related" I said. She nodded slowly before standing up.
"Ok," she said before walking to the kitchen. Ok? Does she not want me? I followed her to the kitchen.
"So you understand?"
"Yeah, why wouldn't I?" she laughed a bit while she poured a glass of water. A part of me was afraid she would throw it at me. But she began to drink it. 
"And you're ok with it?"
"Yes, Enzo. I'm fine with it" she giggled. God her giggle. "Are you fine with it?"
"Yeah...I'm fine with it," I said unsurely.
"Great well. I would love for you to stay longer but I actually have to head out. I'm going shopping. So I'll see you on Monday, right?" She smiled as she began to put her shoes on.
"Yeah...Monday" I think I was in shock. I was unsure of the situation and for some reason it was weird to not have a girl beg for me to stay. I left Clair's place and started going over to Jake's.

***
"So this chick is fine with leaving you alone. What's the problem?" Jake asked as he stood behind the bar in his house making drinks for me, Randy and Carl.
"Now you and your wife can be normal, right?" Carl chimed in.
"Unless you don't want to leave Clair alone." Randy said as he sipped his scotch drink. We all had our curtain drinks. Randy had scotch, Carl had vodka cranberry drinks, Jake loved his bear and I have been in a very committed relationship with my whiskey since I was 19. The boys and I would always sneak alcohol from our parents collections and go drink in a park somewhere late at night. It was more fun then. Now we have houses and don't have to sneak alcohol, it's so boring.
"I think I want to let go of Clair but also hate that she was so ok with it. I mean three rounds of sex, it must've been good for her. But she was ready to give it up the second I said we should stop. I don't know, I feel like of-" I searched for the word before Randy said it.
"Used?"
"Yes. And I kind of want to go back to her to show her that-"
"That you are the best she'll ever have?" Jake said.
"That you don't need her because you are married?" Carl suggested.
"Or, that you don't want to lose her and that you two can continue doing what you are doing because you both enjoy it?" Randy said, and he was right.
"Exactly. I think I like it because It's something I'm not supposed to be doing. I mean, I'm married to Robyn for god sake, what am I doing? But it's something out of the ordinary, and that's why I like it. Being sneaky and shit. It's fun" I said before taking a long sip of my drink. "I just wish it wasn't so complicated. If I was dating Robyn then it wouldn't be bad, but I've been married for 4 years to her. And she is so sweet and carrying and i know she loves me,"
"Isn't she out at the club right now? Who knows who she's meeting there" Carl shrugged.
"I doubt she'd be doing that type of shit. Isn't it a little girls night for one of her friends. She is there for a reason and it's not to cheat on Enzo" Randy said. He was right, but so was Carl. It got me thinking about who she is out with. The clothes she'd bought today were pretty revealing, and I didn't see her before she left. Is she cheating on me?
"Ok guys, look you're making his mind spin faster than the whiskey." Jake said. We all laughed a bit. Jake looked at me. "What do you want to do? The good thing and leave Clair heartbroken? Or the bad thing and have two happy ladies?" he smirked because he knew what I was going to choose.
Two happy women are better than one. But I wondered if Clair would even be heartbroken if I left. I am one of the only people she really knew here. And i can't be around her without being sexually attracted to her.
"I have an idea" Randy started before pausing to take a sip of his drink. "Leave it for now. See if you two are capable with being just colleagues without fucking on the desk. And if you two are able to do that then there, easy, done. But if you guys can't do that," he sighed." do what mr.smartass here is telling you" he pointed at Jake and rolled his eyes before chugging the rest of his drink. I smiled a bit.
"So you gave him permission to cheat if he can't keep it in his pants?" Jake smiled at Randy. "Strange hearin you say that"
"I'm two drinks in and you are all hopeless sex feigning assholes." Randy laughed, we all laughed.
Randy was the most put together out of our group. He worked as a pilot and wasn't in town much. But he did take his wife and kid out of town a lot. Luckily his wife- Tarisa- is a teacher and is capable of teaching their son-Cole- when they are out of town. Randy had just gotten back from Canada. He said he was sad that he was only there for one night and didn't get to explore much.
Carl on the other hand is the complete opposite of Randy. Carl worked at an automotive shop because he loved cars. He enjoyed smoking weed a lot. He used to smoke in the house before his girlfriend-Cassidy- moved in with him and got mad at him for smoking in the house.
Jake was right in between the two boys.He worked at a bar and lived in a house he got using his parents money that was passed down after they had died three years ago. He was single and 100% ready to mingle. He's had every dating app there is out there and is really desperate to settle.
And I was a little higher than Jake but lower then Randy. Nobody could beat Randy. I liked how we were all so different but we're all happy with our lives. I'm glad I have them. And a beautiful wife. And Clair.