beautiful goodbye (TUS I)

CHAPTER FOUR

FLASHBACK

"Alright gather up everyone. Let's practice Bagatelle No. 25 in A minor." We are now half way in finishing the Fur Elise by Ludwig Van Beethoven. I relaxed my body and wait for the conductor to move his baton. I look at my musical notation and pressed the keys as I start playing Beethoven's piece. My eyes were set in two different angle, one on the musical notation and two on my own hands. I listened carefully to the sounds echoing around. A mixed of violin, cello, bassoon and clarinet are all I can hear. 

Playing piano became my passion in such a young age. I can see myself performing around the world. It's like I've got the key of my own future, in the palm of my hands. Ever since I reached the age of six, my mother got me into piano lesson and I never knew that I'll develop something while learning piano. 

The melodic sounds lingers in my ears, I've felt my fingers dance along the symphony that we are currently making. I look at Vionne who is focus in her violin. She and her twin are also part of this orchestra. This group of musicians are compose of youth, age 9 to 15 years old. The practice went well and we are done practicing the whole piece. I guess I'm ready to perform in wide audience this time. 

The conductor called for a 15 minutes break. I hurriedly ran over my friends. Denver is already eating his snack and the twins seems fighting. "You overplayed again Juno." The 10 year old Denver Torres said. "No, I did not." I just followed the notes and hit it on time. "Yeah you did." I rolled my eyes at him but the dork continue teasing me. I know I have a bad temper, my mom is always reminding me that I should learn to control my emotions; because if I let my emotions control me, then it will be the end. So I always try to hide my emotions and I never voice out the thoughts in my head. I don't want to hurt someone because of me. 

The break ended and we continue to play Fur Elise again. The conductor praised me before I go home. He said that I am a bright kid that I should continue being a pianist because he can sense that this hands of mine will bring me to the top of the classical music industry. But as a 11 year old kid, I don't really quite understand what he just said. 

I looked at my hands and follow the lines resting on my palm. can you really help me achieve my dreams?  

Can I?

PRESENT DAY

"Nephthys Juno Aurelio Aguirre?" I am currently standing in front of everyone. There's much more viewers, now than the theater arts audition. This so unfair, fuck it! I can feel my heart racing fast. My hands were shaking so I hid it inside my pocket. Calm the fuck down Juno. "Are you alright?" Fuck, how can I forget. Andito pala sa harap ko yung babaeng nakabanggaan ko sa bar at sa hallway. I am not aware that she's going to be here and obviously one of the musical panelist of the music club audition. 

'Professor Calypso Iris Sanchez' I read the name.

She's a fucking professor?! Fuck me.

I blink twice before I put myself back to reality. "Yes." I simply said. I sat down and do my usual routine before playing, and that is the inhale-exhale method. I heaved a deep sigh before starting to play the minute waltz. Hindi talaga ito ang plano kong tugtugin. I planned to do the Fur Elise but since Ma'am attitude is here, so I'll took this chance to give her my payment that she insisted. I am playing while frustration devours my mind. I don't understand why I'm doing this for her.