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Wished

Ha ha !
What a amazing feeling of ending something

I really wanna feel it at once

Aish! Don't think that I am that depressed dude  ...

It's just that I am not interested in survive
Like, just wake up cause of  that heat ball

Study if you are student ,work if you are adult ..

Just tell me who ask for this type of life

I NEVER !!

then why me

Ahh! I know it's not only me but many people here and there thinking same

What a coincidence ?

Main topic I am just not interested to survive just eat to live and breathe to what if I don't want tooo !

I went to doctor secretaly, it's recent thing
They again give me medicines

Shit  Life !!

Now  I have to take medicine to survive

I thought about when blood is ozzing ahh don't tell anyone ( I also cut sometimes).

It's not like I like it

It's just give me relief

Hehe i cut sometimes when those rich bitch girl bully me or teacher scolds or sometimes when parent hit ofcourse

I AM NOT GOOD DAUGHTER

I just. Can't clean dishes as good as my sister nor I can swipe floor cleanly

 
Mother told me once she regret having me cause she never want it but after. I born they have no choice but to keep me

I remember those sounds of people ringing. In my ears at night

I remember how they point at me and told that I am just worst version

W H O   ARE  THEY.   To decide

Still I tried daily.....

What if one day I become the version they want ...(๑•﹏•)

Today:

I closed the diary ..
I think I really take her lightly
She needs me but I am not there
How can I can't see her depression
I am that bad husband to her
I never help her
She suffered
She suffered ALONE

Why ,why I never there!

"Stop it hoseok, it's not your fault"

"How can you say that hyung!!
She is dead ,she die cause of me "

"No! NO hoseok she die cause of people"

"So, me....."

"No, not you, people who really hurt her give her pain

I see you caring her, loving her
It's definitely not you  "

"But still she leaves me! Why hyung"

"She is tired hoseok ,now put that diary there and come with me"

Hoseok goes to that wall where his beloved wife's photo is present
He place the diary on table beneath the huge photo frame near her ring box

Where hoseok's choice her favourite wedding ring is still present..

"Hoseok come quickly!!"
He listen it

Not in this life but I promise you in our next life I will keep you as my treasure

Away from world

Close to my heart

SAFELY!!