Intimately Yours | sapnap

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gonna get shitfaced before alec's concert tonight where i may or may not see dream ! (and george?)
i condone alc*h*l !!

(please don't take that seriously)
might even make out with my friend again

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"I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was talking to her." Corey says, out of breath, as soon as Sapnap opens the door to his apartment.

He let's out a huff of air while opening it up wider for the younger brunette to follow him in, which he does without a word.

Considering neither of them are very serious people, they find themselves in this similar situation so often—awkwardly having to start the conversation of apologies and forgiveness.

Sapnap takes quick steps over to his couch, sits down while watching Corey closes the door and walk over to him.

There's so much that needs to be said but actually saying it is the challenging part.

"Corey," he starts, Corey squeezes his eyes shut, "I can't do this lying thing. And keeping things from me. I understand that you-you coop everything up inside because that's just how you grew up. I get it. But it's me."

The younger can't find the right words, instead keeping eye contact with his boyfriend. That doesn't last long, however, because the longer he stares, the more prevalent the hurt in his eyes is.

Sapnap watches him slowly take a seat beside him on the couch. All of this needs to get settled so they aren't constantly going in circle's with every argument they have.

Now, Nick doesn't want to always put the blame on Corey, but the younger boy makes it hard not to. He never lets Nick in which leads to keeping things secret, whether he means to or not.

Like telling their friends about their relationship before Nick was ready, lying about how he is paying for his apartment, not telling him about talking to Lacey again (the current issue at hand), and almost outing him to the internet– not that that one was necessarily his fault entirely.

"I feel like this is so out of character for me- this whole dating thing and, like, being serious. I just want you to see it from my perspective." Sapnap tells the boy.

Corey reaches for one of Nick's hands, gently rubbing a few of his fingers.

"I love being with you, I do. But when you do this shit, it's like we're never on the same page," Sapnap continues, "You're my boyfriend, we're in a relationship, and it makes me feel li-like neither of those are true when you're not...telling me stuff or doing things without letting me know first, you know?"

Corey nods along to his lecture. It's nothing he hasn't realized for himself. This always seems to be the case for his relationships, and this is usually the point that they end.

"No, I get it. I've got some major issues in the trust department," Corey starts, "But I might not tell you things because I know how you'd react, like telling you about Lacey, and I was right."

Sapnap pulls his hand away and groans in annoyance, "I acted like that because you didn't tell me in the first place. No I'm not happy about it, and yeah I do still think she's a bitch but I was more upset you didn't think you could tell me."