LET ME LOVE YOU - MAXNAT

LET ME LOVE YOU - 6

'Are you sure you don't want me to take you back?' Max keeps on trying 

'I can take a taxi from here' Nat said 

After that awkward encounter in the hospital room, where both of them almost not speaking to each other other than the 'are you ok' and 'I'm fine'. Max's assistant that predominantly bridging the conversations between the two, he too felt the so much awkwardness in that room. 

Max keeps his eyes on Nat who still looks all pale and drained. He really is worried. 

A taxi approaches their direction and stops near them. Nat glances at Max and nods a bit before he walks towards the taxi. Max unable to respond or to say anything, he watches Nat gets into the taxi and the smaller guy not even gave him another glance. 

'Sir' the assistant guides Max to his car

'Follow that taxi, but keep your distance' Max said 

The driver nods while the assistant looks at him confused. After 15 minutes drive the taxi stopped in the same hotel they were before. Max stares at Nat from afar, it seems like he didn't even blink. His face changed the minute the smaller man enters the building and disappear from his eyes. Max is trying so hard to hold himself to not go out from that car and run to him.

'Sir..' 

'Sir.. excuse me, sir?' 

Max turns to his assistant after several seconds lost in his own mind. 

'The man said he wants to transfer the money for the hospital bill, should I give your bank account, sir?' 

'huh? who?' 

'The man earlier, sir' the assistant said 

'Nat? he contacted you?' 

The assistant nods. 'He asked for my number earlier' 

'So, should I give your account?' he asked again

Max takes out his phone, 'What's his number?' Max asked 

Max types the number on his phone and save it to replace Nat's old number recorded in his phone. Yes, Max still keeps that number eventhough after several days post their separation that number was no longer active. 

'I'll contact him myself' Max said

'Contact the hotel, I want all the information you can get on him' 

The assistant nods and starts to reach out to some people.

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Nat looks at the luggage that has been well prepared near his bed, he sits on the edge of the bed feeling all this unnecessarily uncomforting stuff inside his heart and head. He couldn't sleep last night, it was a horrible long night where he could think about nothing other than Max, all those feelings and longing he tried to burry down for years, now comes back, just like that. All the pain and wounds he got three years a go feels like it only happened yesterday. However, not only the pain that he feels, but the love and yearning, all suddenly feel so fresh, so new, so overwhelming that he almost couldn't stop himself from crying almost the entire night.

Nat looks at his watch, it's about time, he needs to leave to the airport. He wipes that tears that just falls without warning on to his cheek and stands up to grab the luggage, and leaves the room.

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It's been 2 months since that last encounter with Max in Bangkok, but nothing since then. It is a big fat lie if he said that he didn't wish Max could contact him or probably they could somehow miraculously crossed path again. However, Nat got nothing, he didn't even get any reply from Max's assistant on his request to repay the hospital bill. 'It is clear that he doesn't want to reconnect, Max helped him out of courtesy, nothing more' , that's what Nat could conclude.