Even If I Can't Keep You

Life Changing

I woke up to a slam of the door. I immediately sat up and looked towards the door and I couldn't tell if it was Marc or Steven. He was dirty and covered in dirt with blood that I hoped wasn't his. He also had a few cuts and bruises. I got out of the bed and walked towards him.

"I'm fine" It was Marc.

"Here let me-" I went to grab his hands to help but he pulled away from me.

"I don't need your help" Marc walked away from me and towards the bathroom. I felt like crying, I knew that Marc obviously wasn't interested in me but I knew Steven was so it hurt to see him avoid me even if it wasn't really him. A few minutes after I sunk onto the couch the bathroom door opened and Marc poked his head out. "Y/N" It was definitely still Marc. "Steven insists that I let you help me" I got up and walked into the bathroom, wiping any tears that may have formed in my eyes. I sat Marc down on the toilet and grabbed the first aid kit from under the sink, beginning to patch up the cuts on his hands. Marc stared at me for almost the whole time. 

"All of a sudden like what you see?"

"I wouldn't say that but I definitely understand why Steven likes you so much." 

"And why is that?"

"You're nice, and very helpful." I smiled as I finished patching him up. 

"Well thank you." I paused and looked into Marc's eyes trying to connect with Steven. "Both of you." Marc stood up and pulled off his shirt. I immediately turned around. "W-well since I'm done I'll just go back out to the couch" I left and shut the door behind me. I had already seen him shirtless but Steven didn't know that and it wasn't Steven it was Marc so it made it feel even more awkward. After a few moments there was silence in the flat and Marc walked out of the bathroom. I looked up from my phone and watched him walk to the kitchen and drink a cup of water. His hair was pushed back and damp and he was wearing a tight fitting white t-shirt with gray sweatpants. Marc then put the cup in the sink and walked towards the bed. 

"Can I talk to Steven now?" Marc nodded and closed his eyes for a moment or two and then they fluttered back open. He looked down at himself and patted his body. 

"It feels good to be back" Steven sighed in relief and got into the bed. "Staying the night again?"

"Y-yes I guess so but can I ask you a question?"

"Of course"

"Once you found out about... Marc. How long were you going to keep that from me?" 

"As long as I could to be honest. But Marc was right you needed to know, the sooner the better."

"Why were you going to keep that from me?"

"I don't understand what is going on. It honestly scares me and I didn't want to scare you away. Marc was right though, being honest with you was more important even if that meant losing you."

"For being in the same body you and Marc haven't gotten along quite well since you've met, have you?"

"No. We are completely different." Steven chuckled. "I wish I could get rid of him. I just met him and I already don't like him." I grabbed Stevens hand.

"He's a part of you Steven and vice versa, and I will be here for both of you. Even if Marc doesn't want me to." Steven and I laughed. He seemed to be completely calm now, as if he wasn't just out with Marc, completely covered in blood. I realized very fast that I was the only person he trusted and felt comfortable around. It made me feel good knowing that I had a calming effect on him. 

"I'm exhausted" Steven laid back on his pillow and closed his eyes. 

"I'm sure you are" I couldn't help myself and tangled my hand in his hair. Stevens hair was still slightly wet from the shower but it was super soft. His slowly forming curls wrapped around my fingers. Steven looked up at me with a smile and then he closed his eyes again and before I knew it he was fast asleep. I took my hand out of his hair and smiled to myself. Steven was so sweet and I really wanted to spend forever with him. The only issue I had was with Marc. He didn't seem interested and I didn't know if I could handle that. Marc seemed to soften up a little when we were in the bathroom but it wasn't enough. I wasn't going to give up that easily though. I was determined to get Marc at least interested in me enough to be friends with me. Even if I couldn't be with Steven and Marc beyond that, friendship was more than I could ever ask for. 

Word Count: 836  Another Chapter in the book! I hope you all love it so far :) I am now caught up with all of my prewritten chapters so it may take a little longer for me to upload. I'm not in school so I'll have plenty of time to write before work but we shall see. Once again, if you have any recommendations or suggestions please let me know!