Hello loves, before we start I just want to give a quick Trigger Warning: Mention of attempted suicide***
If this triggers you, then please do not read, but this is supposed to be as comfort. I write this kind of topic with senpai again because he is
my comfort character, and I feel like shit right now. Also, If you are having suicidal thoughts you may text this number for to talk to a crisis counselor, were you can speak about anything. Or
call the suicide hotline. Please do not be afraid to reach out. This chapter is also mostly a vent, sorry.
CRISIS COUNSELOR:
US: text 741741
CA: text 741741
UK: text 85258
SUICIDE HOTLINE
800-273-8255
YOUR P.O.V
Life fucking sucks. I can't take this anymore. Everything is just crashing down on me.
I'm not good enough. I'm never fucking good enough. I can't do anything right. My grades are bad
and no matter what I do I can't do better. I'm losing my friends faster than I can gain them. They all leave.
My family hates me. Why must they always put me down. I always feel like shit around them. It makes me feel like life isn't worth living.
Maybe that's it.
Hot tears stream down my cheeks as my pace quickens. I knew exactly where I was headed. Note in hand, I made my way into the building. I stepped into the elevator,
And I started to second guess myself. Was this really what I wanted? Yes. It was the only way, I had to do this.
I glance at my phone once more checking my texts to my boyfriend senpai. I had sent him one last text.
TEXTS:
"I'm so sorry. I'm sorry darling, I can't do this anymore. I have to do this. I hope you can forgive me.
I'm leaving you off with this last message. You are my one pride and joy. I love you so much, you meant
the world to me. I'm sorry I couldn't stay long enough, I hope you can move on, you will be better off without me.
I'm so sorry. I love you Senpai. Goodbye."
This is going to be my last message to you...
I thought to myself, reading over the message again.
This is fine.
I'm pulled away from my thought as the elevator beeps, signaling that I reached my floor, the very top floor leading to the roof.
I take a deep breath and step out onto the roof, The gentle breeze swirling around me. The calm sound of the wind and
the faint sound of traffic calmed my nerves a lot. I paused for a moment taking in the view, how beautiful it was...
The stars, the moon shining brightly in the sky...
I'd miss this. Without a second thought, I made my way towards the edge of the roof, looking down. Wow.
It was so much higher up than I thought, but the view was..nice.
I dropped my bag on the roof, along with my phone and my suicide note. Turning back, I decided that I wanted to jump back first, I'd rather not see
how close I am to hitting the ground. I closed my eyes. Holy shit. I'm really doing this. I take a deep breath and jump.
The weightlessness I felt made my stomach drop. As my feet left the edge I opened my eyes to admire it one last time.
I saw a hand reach out from over the edge and grab mine, causing my fall to stop suddenly. I look up to see Senpai's fear filled eyes stare into to mine.
I hadn't regreted jumping. Not one bit. But seeing Senpai's eyes stare back at me, I felt.. Regret.
He pulled me up and pulled me into his arms. I hadn't even noticed I started crying. Senpai was crying too.
After a little while in his arms, he pulled back a little, his arms resting on my shoulders still.
"Why..? Honey, why..? Why didn't you tell me something was wrong?"
He questioned, and I just stared back. After a bit of hesitation, I poured my heart out to him and cried, while he gave me his full attention, holding my hands and
rubbing them lovingly.
"Darling, please, please talk to be when something is wrong. I don't know what I would do without you Y/n...
I will do anything and everything in my power to help you out and make you happy, I promise you that."
Sorry for the ending, I was starting to run out of ideas. I hope you enjoyed though.
<3
