Hello loves, This isn't a chapter and I'm sorry about that.
But I really need to get this rant/vent off of my chest and I need some advice.
So I am really questioning my sexuallity. I was confused and just assumed I was pansexual, but now i'm not so sure.
I don't really feel any attraction to men, romantically or sexually. I only really feel that way for women.
I don't feel anything for men irl, but only fictional men and celebrities. But then I realized I don't actually feel attracted to them.
It's more like, admiration. I might see a man and think "oh hey he's kind of attractive" but I don't feel anything for men. I only feel a romantic attraction
to women. I don't ever see myself dating a man, only women.
I don't this I could ever come out to anyone I know irl because I am scared. I feel invalid. My family/friends think I am boy crazy or something, but i'm not.
I pretend to like men because I want them to happy. Because I feel like it's the right thing to do, but it doesn't feel right.
I don't know what to do, and i'm so confused.
Sorry for the rant.
