Him

Nine

Kim AiXun

It was disturbing him, the rays of sun that filtered through his window. AiXun let out a deep sigh, wanting to curse the universe for the existence of the sun. He wasn't fond of it, neither was he fond of waking up. AiXun didn't feel like waking up, wanting to just sleep and forget everything existed. He laid there, covering his face with a pillow, low key hoping it would suffocate him to death.

"AiXun?" He didn't reply as he heard footsteps nearing to his side. "I brought breakfast for you. Figured you wouldn't want to be out of bed. Do you want me to change your dressing?"

Dressing? What dressing? AiXun asked himself. He put away the pillow that covered his face, meeting Hyunjin's eyes. AiXun eyes softened at the sight of the older. He sat up, folding his legs and faced the other.

"I'm sorry," It was soft and raspy but, HyunJin managed to hear the other.

"Don't apologize, you did nothing wrong." HyunJin smiled. It was then, AiXun realized that he had bandages wrapped around his palm, all the way up to his forearm when the older took his hand, "Do you wanna take a shower?"

AiXun responded with a nod.

"I'll get the tub prepared, have your breakfast." Hyunjin set a portable table in front of him. AiXun watched as the other went into the bathroom. Yet again, AiXun let out a sigh, looking at the typical English breakfast.

Hwan HyunJin prepared the tub with a warm water and poured some lavender scented fragrance, he knew it was the younger favourite. He thought he would be nice to pamper AiXun today. He waited until the tub was 3/4 full before heading back to where AiXun was. AiXun didn't touch his food, only playing and nudging on the poor scrambled egg.

"It's okay if you don't want to eat." HyunJin said. He put away the portable table and pulled the younger to his feet. "Come on, let's get you washed up."

It was nothing new to see AiXun casually strip in front of him until he was naked. HyunJin assisted to remove the other's bandage, wincing at the numerous cut underneath. He watched as AiXun got into the tub, submerging his body into it.

"Doesn't it hurt?" HyunJin asked as he took the shower head, wetting AiXun's hair. AiXun stayed silent, only subtly shaking his head in response. "Bang Chan and I will be moving here tomorrow. It seems the house would get very rowdy now that almost all of us are moving in." Hyunjin took some shampoo, gently massaging AiXun's hair. "ChangBin said he'll move in next week. Jisung and him decided to be roommates which leaves me and Bang Chan to be roommates too." He didn't care that AiXun didn't show much reaction to him. Hyunjin continued, "Ai, the plan that you made the other night, can you reconsider? I don't want to lose you. Neither does anyone here."

"Let's not talk about that." AiXun said.

"Sorry," HyunJin whispered, "I just wanted you to know."

"Do you still love me that much?"

That caught HyunJin off guard. AiXun and him had met 7 years ago while he was in the juvenile. It was like a love at first sight. HyunJin had volunteered his time to tutor. The first time he saw AiXun was when he stumbled across the hallways in the juvenile, dropping all the booklets to the floor. AiXun was the one that helped him to pick everything back up and even help him to bring them into the juvenile library. It was weird how AiXun didn't even say a word, only nodding his head to other. HyunJin then learned from Lee Know that AiXun was a selective mute, he would only talk to someone when he develop the trust. It took a year, a year for AiXun to finally trust him and his first word to him was, 'pretty'. AiXun had called him pretty after he saw the older came in the room with his new long dyed blonde hair. HyunJin on the other hand swore if there wasn't Lee Know who snapped him into reality, he would have fainted on the floor with a nose bleed after hearing AiXun's voice. His love for AiXun grew even deeper. At first, he thought it was just a typical high school love crush but, oh was he wrong. He finds himself wanting AiXun more and more as they grew closer.

It was that one day, HyunJin found himself alone with AiXun as he tutored the other on a subject they were focusing on. HyunJin confessed. AiXun didn't react in any way, disgusted as what HyunJin thought AiXun would feel. Instead, AiXun gave him a gentle smile, rejecting him. His heart broke, of course, which heart wouldn't break after being rejected by their crush? Thankfully, the two of them talked it out in a mutual way and HyunJin came into an understanding that AiXun was in love with someone else.

"Hyung?"

HyunJin took a deep breath and casually wash away the shampoo on AiXun's head, "it doesn't matter. Even if I do still love you, there isn't much I can do right?"

"I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize. You did nothing wrong." HyunJin said, "In life, you got to learn that sometime you have to accept reality. It is what it is ain't it?"

"It is what it is." AiXun repeated, a soft chuckle leaving his lips. He got up from the tub, taking a quick rinse and brushed his teeth. HyunJin left the bathroom first to prepare the younger clothes. "Hyung."

"Yeah?" Hyunjin responded, eyes not leaving the wardrobe as he search for a specific shirt. Just when he found the specific shirt, AiXun had surprised him with a back hug, "Oomph,"

"Thank you. Thank you for staying in my life." AiXun whispered. HyunJin smiled, slowly falling into his embrace. He felt AiXun plants a long kiss on the top of his head. They stayed in each other's embrace for awhile, enjoying each other's company. It was until HyunJin broke their hug, tossing him the shirt.

"You know, even if I had seen you naked for a millionth time, I still get horny with your body."

"Everyone does." AiXun proudly answered, a smug smile depicted on his face. "Like what you see?"

"Obviously." HyunJin rolled his eyes, "I'm gonna make you some hot coffee. Go and get dressed."